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Update...... part 1...( part 2 will be more peppy)
11 years ago
Yuupppp......
That downward spiral of crap hasnt really begun to get much better......
....and now I am almost convinced that I need to put myself into a mental institution so they can just make me non-existent already.......
I cant hold on much longer like this... and I need only one thing to happen... me being destroyed....
My art isn't any good,, my desire for the future isn't good, my father considers me to be an abomination to himself and God himself...
What am I supposed to do....... and why should I live?....
everyone who i need to be there cant and or wont be, and I cant seem to make myself strong enough in my mind to not go ahead and forget all about the things I feel are important to everyone else regarding myself, and jus do whatever the heck I desire with the money I make and such.....
although I am 20, I feel like a 15 year old with this feeling of no return.....
I just don't know anymore....
I'll post something more peppy later on, but I basically have had enough with this life of not being real and happy and such... but I cant make those choices to make this life amazing for me any tim here in the future it seems......
I am stuck....
Maybe I should just run away and never return....... O.O
SCAR's voice just went through my head........... not a good sign.....
anywho.. enough ranting bout mah depressed self... DIS WOLF NEEDS SOM SLEEPs
- l8tr
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Slay Talon/ST16
That downward spiral of crap hasnt really begun to get much better......
....and now I am almost convinced that I need to put myself into a mental institution so they can just make me non-existent already.......
I cant hold on much longer like this... and I need only one thing to happen... me being destroyed....
My art isn't any good,, my desire for the future isn't good, my father considers me to be an abomination to himself and God himself...
What am I supposed to do....... and why should I live?....
everyone who i need to be there cant and or wont be, and I cant seem to make myself strong enough in my mind to not go ahead and forget all about the things I feel are important to everyone else regarding myself, and jus do whatever the heck I desire with the money I make and such.....
although I am 20, I feel like a 15 year old with this feeling of no return.....
I just don't know anymore....
I'll post something more peppy later on, but I basically have had enough with this life of not being real and happy and such... but I cant make those choices to make this life amazing for me any tim here in the future it seems......
I am stuck....
Maybe I should just run away and never return....... O.O
SCAR's voice just went through my head........... not a good sign.....
anywho.. enough ranting bout mah depressed self... DIS WOLF NEEDS SOM SLEEPs
- l8tr
-
Slay Talon/ST16
ulfrick1
~ulfrick1
Slay, you're scaring me man and that is a pretty difficult thing to do. If you need someone to talk to man just send a note my way or message me on skype. I want to try and help you out.
