so listen up.

I might as well prepare you for it as early as possible.


Now, I don't know how many of you already knows this, but I really wanna become an export truck driver, so I can get out and live, and see the world, or well, europe at least, first. I will fight my strongest to get over my social anxiety so I can get the education and get the license for the truck.

Now, while all this sounds like a good thing for everybody, you guys have to know something.
While I've been very active the last few years, that will stop once I get job as a truck driver.

Because I will need to be ready to work at any time, and I may even be gone for days or weeks at a time.

That means my activity will fall drastically, and that I won't post as much art as I used to.
Also, the lack of art will also start already as soon as I am accepted into the school.

I won't be on skype constantly, I will not reply to messages or anything after 9:30 pm at least.
Because I will need to sleep early, so I can get up early, and still be fresh and pay attention.

I will need to get into a rythm of eating breakfast, lunch and dinner at the right times too.


I really hope my friends and you, my watchers, will all back me up and support me in this project. It means a lot to me to get this job and it is pretty damn important. I need the money and I need to get better, and this is a sure way to get better.

I feel bad and sad, and depressed, and tired and horrible because I spent almost all my time in a small dark room. It affects me and I reflect with a lot of negative emotions and energies. Which is why I often seem offended by ridicolous stuff, and often goes on unannounced hiatuses.

A way for me to get better, is to get out and get good experiences.
I will attempt on that too. Later today, there's this club I'm a part of, that is holding this BBQ party, that I WILL attempt, and try to have a good time at.

Meaning I won't be able to easily reach from about, noon to the evening to later evening, though I might be on skype, I probably won't reply as I will try to pay attention to the people around me.

Regardless of how much I despise it and how much it scares me to be around people.
I need to get over it.

I am officially done being a scaredy cat.
I will not let these things get in the way and stop me from reaching my goal.


I will be hurt if my friends disapprove and don't support me.
Seriously.

I just really want you all to be prepared for it.
Cause my activity will drop even more, once I succeed.

Wish me luck. C: