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More awareness of who I am, my art style, and more.
11 years ago
How freaky is this..
I have been noticing some things lately, and as I try and get everything ready, A new ID, a new avatar, a new fursona, and more. I have begun to feel a higher voice speaking to me, helping me to understand who I am as a person and an artist.
As a person: I am quiet, I am passive, I am a freak, but I am full of ideas. In a recent job, I discoveed it didnt work out because the one in charge kept trying to force me to change who I was. I was not allowed to be myself, but instead they insisted that in order to succeed, I had to take on the "standard" personality. This in turn would have come at a heavy cost. The more I tried to force myself to adapt this "standard issue" personality, more outgoing, more aggressive, more talkative. The more my creativity left me. And the less interest drawing seemed to hold for me. If I had stayed, I would have likely lost my creative drive entirely.
I will always try and offer help when I can, Whether its though a listening ear, the consultation of my tarot cards, or just helping to look at things from a different perspective.
I am a Freak, one of many minds, and many voices. I seek to create from an enlightened perspective. I will not conform to standard issue in order to 'succeed'
As an artist: As I have done my art, Ihave noticed a few pattens that are likely normal and will result in some restructuring of my prices, :) First of which I have begun to understand that whether traditional or digital, the sketches are just best done in a pencil and paper sketchbook. I try doing them digitally and the sketches just dont seem to look right. Maybe if I can pick up a cintiq for cheap or something it would help, but I feel more comfortable sittin down with a traditional sketchbook in my lap and working.
I am an artist who will try almost anything once, again if I like it. But please understand I do not come up with these ideas on my own. What I am capable of must have an outside source, The more suggestions people give me, the more I can do. But It has to Be SUGGESTED first. Bondage? suggest it and I will try it. Lactation? I didnt do it till it was suggested. got a particular kink you want to see me try? Well likely wont try it on my own, you would have to suggest it.
I do have disabilities, most predominant is my Asperger's syndrom: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome
As well as Oppositional Defiance disorder, ADHD/ADD. Bi-polar, (recovered)epileptic (There hasnt been any seizure activity in my brain, but that doesnt mean its not possible). They are part of who I am, some may say I am using them as a crutch, regardless, they still exist.
So I am learning, I know I am a freak, an oddball, 1 of a kind. I seek to enlighten and assist others, to help bring ideas into shape and form. But I refuse to discard parts of my personality just for the sake of being successful. Afte all, there is No way you could be successful AND be yourself, right?
So I encouage people to enjoy my art, and If my declaration that I will not become just another cog has angered you, then by all means unwatch me, I will not stop you. But I refuse to become just another artist who must conform to a set checklist in order to be popular. I will try many different things and keep what I like. But I will not abandon who I am for the sake of more watches, more commissions, more...anything.
I will be me, a tarot-card reading, anime and video game loving, oddball character creating, BEAUTIFUL Freakshow!. I am BFS!
As a person: I am quiet, I am passive, I am a freak, but I am full of ideas. In a recent job, I discoveed it didnt work out because the one in charge kept trying to force me to change who I was. I was not allowed to be myself, but instead they insisted that in order to succeed, I had to take on the "standard" personality. This in turn would have come at a heavy cost. The more I tried to force myself to adapt this "standard issue" personality, more outgoing, more aggressive, more talkative. The more my creativity left me. And the less interest drawing seemed to hold for me. If I had stayed, I would have likely lost my creative drive entirely.
I will always try and offer help when I can, Whether its though a listening ear, the consultation of my tarot cards, or just helping to look at things from a different perspective.
I am a Freak, one of many minds, and many voices. I seek to create from an enlightened perspective. I will not conform to standard issue in order to 'succeed'
As an artist: As I have done my art, Ihave noticed a few pattens that are likely normal and will result in some restructuring of my prices, :) First of which I have begun to understand that whether traditional or digital, the sketches are just best done in a pencil and paper sketchbook. I try doing them digitally and the sketches just dont seem to look right. Maybe if I can pick up a cintiq for cheap or something it would help, but I feel more comfortable sittin down with a traditional sketchbook in my lap and working.
I am an artist who will try almost anything once, again if I like it. But please understand I do not come up with these ideas on my own. What I am capable of must have an outside source, The more suggestions people give me, the more I can do. But It has to Be SUGGESTED first. Bondage? suggest it and I will try it. Lactation? I didnt do it till it was suggested. got a particular kink you want to see me try? Well likely wont try it on my own, you would have to suggest it.
I do have disabilities, most predominant is my Asperger's syndrom: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome
As well as Oppositional Defiance disorder, ADHD/ADD. Bi-polar, (recovered)epileptic (There hasnt been any seizure activity in my brain, but that doesnt mean its not possible). They are part of who I am, some may say I am using them as a crutch, regardless, they still exist.
So I am learning, I know I am a freak, an oddball, 1 of a kind. I seek to enlighten and assist others, to help bring ideas into shape and form. But I refuse to discard parts of my personality just for the sake of being successful. Afte all, there is No way you could be successful AND be yourself, right?
So I encouage people to enjoy my art, and If my declaration that I will not become just another cog has angered you, then by all means unwatch me, I will not stop you. But I refuse to become just another artist who must conform to a set checklist in order to be popular. I will try many different things and keep what I like. But I will not abandon who I am for the sake of more watches, more commissions, more...anything.
I will be me, a tarot-card reading, anime and video game loving, oddball character creating, BEAUTIFUL Freakshow!. I am BFS!
