Eh, this will be something of an emo rant now. Well, today is the last day I shall be spending at home, tommorrow I return to the university campus and start the spring term. And I'm dreading it now. I just don't think I can go back there and cope with it all, not just the studying but more of the loneliness and solitude. I completely screwed up in welcome week and the first term, I know next to no one there so it would just be me alone in my room pretending to be a bloody wolf on an IRC with the only people I could really call me friends... Pathetic isn't it? And sometimes the internet connection fails, and that sends me into panic because if these people are gone then I'll be completely alone. I dunno, sometimes I think all the time I spend there gets in the way of a real social life, but I just can't, I just can't go out there and talk to people. Of course I should probably spend less time on it, but I don't want to take a break from it or leave the fandom completely. I dunno, I've got a meeting with a counsellor on Tuesday and we'll see how it goes there. Dunno if I should tell him about this though.