Ahhhh so me and my boyfriend decided to enter a like, higher level Dom/sub relationship and this obviously involves punishments. I didn't realize how hard it is to follow instructions/exact punishments over long-distance. There is no real reinforcement except your own willpower (which is important as a sub and dom alike) but I just have so frikkin little of it, and I kept breaking the rules cause I am so unused to them and guuuuh I feel really fucking bad cause I feel like I had pretty much one job as a sub and I really let my dom down and I feel like shit. I'm a terrible sub, even though its the only thing I want to do and I really love it. . I just have like 0 willpower. I know it will be better once we are together in person again, but I want to please him so bad and yeah I'm terrible and feel like it too. He is doing such a good job and I hate letting him down by being so shit in comparison.


bluuuuh...