On July 24 I'm going out of country to Costa Rica. Will be there for 3 full weeks. This trip is coming just in time. My dad has become a raging alcoholic again and I live with him. I won't say the emotional and physical pain I'm in because of his addiction.

I also found out that I was not to bring my cell phone or any electronics to Costa Rica. At first I was very upset, but then I took a look around at my online friends, and realized how few of them are true friends. And most of my real friends I don't talk to anyway.

In Costa Rica I'm going to be doing a lot of reading and writing. It doesn't matter that I have no motivation to write. I will find a reason to love writing. Maybe it will make me feel like I'm alive again. I haven't written much since January.

Anyway, if you try to text me and I don't reply, I'm "in a better place," as they say. Maybe when I come back the world will be back in order, and if not, hopefully I'll have the strength and wisdom to put it that way.

-Jackson Fox