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Why Am I still Afraid?
11 years ago
He cant hurt me anymore, he cant steal anymore of my innocence. Yet... Im still dreadfully terrified. I fall to pieces when I see the man that completely recked my self-esteem. The reason I cry to the point of hyper-ventilation and dry heaving. The man that ruined my family, the people I protected for years while I suffered and died inside. Everytime I break down when I see him, when I see her. the one who I protected the most... who told me she didn't believe me.
Im grown now, im strong now. I can take out grown men when they least expect it from someone as sweet and weak looking as me yet I still fall apart. I still feel weak, and afraid just like when I was little and knew I wouldn't make it if I ran. Why? Why can't I? Why can't I stop being afraid of him? When can I stop running...
Im grown now, im strong now. I can take out grown men when they least expect it from someone as sweet and weak looking as me yet I still fall apart. I still feel weak, and afraid just like when I was little and knew I wouldn't make it if I ran. Why? Why can't I? Why can't I stop being afraid of him? When can I stop running...
I dunno. Then again, maybe this is just the wrong tree for me to be barking up at. *shrugs* If it were me, I'd approach the guy directly and let him know how I feel. Of course social anxiety can be a real jerk sometimes... XP
I do have social anxiety however... that has little to do with this, other then this likely being the cause of it.