Okay so yeah I feel really shitty about myself like shittier than I've ever felt. I guess I was just too deprived and greedy to realize what was morally right. I genuinely thought it was okay and now I can't forgive myself. Everything flew out the window. My religion, my view on myself, everything. I problem won't be able to look at myself for quite a while because I just feel so disgusting inside ugh ew. I hurt everytime I look at him. And I hate the thought of everything that happened. Ugh gosh whyyyy. I'll be fine in a few hours though..