Howdy ladies and germs, haha. That was quite a long hiatus and i'm sorry for that. Lots has gone on and because of that I may be very quiet on here. However, I am still responding to notes so if you want to talk to me that way then feel free to send one on it's way!

Anyways. An update on how I'm doing. I've been alright. I've gotten in touch with a lot of friends over the time I was gone and I suppose that's good. However, My self-image is diminishing. My Fiance hasn't been very happy with me lately and I kind of feel like it's due to my transition. I've thought and thought about halting it and i've just decided to...take it slow...Why try to shove myself face first into being happy? you're supposed to approach it gradually, aren't you?

Also. Today is the anniversary of the day I broke up with a very abusive ex of mine. It was the relationship that. well. made me who I am today, haha. I had a lot of bad luck today, which I guess is expected. This day has never been a happy day for me ever since that day. it's always brought terrible luck and i'm not sure why!

Anywho. I'm still happy on the inside, if that makes sense. Watching people who are in love is kind of calming for me. Especially since I'll never 'truly' know what love is. It makes me warm inside. And I'm happy that im beginning my transition, even if it's causing so much trouble for me. I'm just keeping my chin up, looking forward to being a full-on man. It's going to be hard to adjust to my life in the future. But i'll get over it. I'm sure once i'm there, everything will be happy. I wont be able to be hurt and I will be a strong foundation. Unbreakable. Unscathed. Gosh, sorry for rambling on there! Anyways it's good to see you all again!