It has been decided. My heart hurts so much right now, you've no idea. 'Just a dog/animal" are not words that will make me feel better at all and will actually gain my immense hatred. My boy has been so much more for me than jjust an animal. He is my baby. We've been through a world of pain and suffering together and survived. N

I've decided it's unfair and that our time is done. He needs to close his eyes and rest in peace, never to hurt again. Even though it's time to say goodbye, I'll spoil you worse during the little time we have left.

Depression meds will have a real workout for some time to come! Haha, yes. I get to laugh at myself.

Someday, these journals will have a happy note, right?