They tried four times to get my damn iv in and omg it hurt ;( and before that five tries for drawing blood! Had to take it from above the back of my wrist. Hurt like hell. And on top of everything they had to give me a unit of insulin! So i had ten needles D'X. Worst part i couldnt eat anything. Surgery went fine i was very drugged up. They gave me t3's for pain. I felt so weird after. This was my first surgery ever and i still feel weird. They didnt cut me open but it was just awkward for me i guess. They stuck a vacuum in me while i was asleep and i was gassed and i had a sleepy drug put in my iv. I woke up cause i gagged on my breathing tube when they were removing it. I had to make a tough choice though. Either have the hospital dispose of the remains( sadly i had to do that with the first i was way too devastated) this time i had to choose between taking the remains to burry myself and pay fir a funeral, or let them burry it in the cemetery in the grave of the unborn. I wont be able to have the remain exhumed after though and there isnt a marker where the baby is born. It was a better choice though. Now that i think about it, the baby will have lots of other babies to play with and lots of people to take care of it wherever it is resting peacefully. It breaks my heart thinking about losing another baby though. The doctors said i was only 7 weeks when the baby passed. I was 11 weeks when i had the surgery on sunday.Icing on this shit cake: my great uncle natt is in a coma as well. And they stuck a catheter in me while i was under cause no one told me i was allowed to pee before surgery!!! DX I
Oh! Also my rent next month is now 975$ because my idiot room mate did t pay her part a d all we had was 200$ because we are looking fir jobs! She is supposed to pay 375$ she paid 0$ and put all her cash on her phone for a wooping total of : 700$!?! I got her bill and almost choked her. 1,000$ her regular bill is only 200$. She spent the rest on FUCKING DATA!!!!!!! Urhg!!! So as if losing a baby was not enough, ive now lost two and i might lose my home because of her!!!! If hse doesnt pay next month not only am i homeless but she is dead cause that means ny pregnant kitty miss derpy is also homeless D'; ! And one more shit brick for the wallof crapive been going through, my boss**( i baby sit for her, i hate her kids cause they are rude and dont listen.) she owes me 120$ :/ i watched her kids from 3:00pm to fucking 2am!!!!! While i was sick!!!! Uhg. Can some throw me a fuckin bone here??? If anyone is in london that knows me and wants to help some way, look for me on skype k? I need a drink or something deep fried a d smoothered in chocolate( fairy godmother from Shrek 2)