Today has been the darkest and most emotionally taxing days of my life. the atmosphere was set for sorrow, dark, cold and raining. Today day I lost more than a dog.... I lost my fiend....

my old girl of 16 year passed on the morning. Its just to unreal to accept at the moment. A part of me died with her today she has set the most fondest memories in stone in my life.

2 days ago she just stopped eating... and in that time she started to loose that spark. At her age her eye sight was poor. Half deaf and then this... we .. or I made the decision to put her down before we went on holiday.. I was going to put in a days leave to prepare for the task ahead. Monday I gave her her last bath, took a few photo's and cuddle. Yesterday when I got back from work her breathing was somewhat labored... and I recognized that when my late dad was on his last stretch. I was with her late into the night with her on my lay... and she knew it.. just something the way she looked up at me.. and I knew she was on her way out... tucked her into bed and said my good byes... I found her dead and cold this morning. I'm happy and grateful that she died where she belonged.. she died where she felt at piece.. her home.. and not at the end of a needle. But angry that she was uneasy for a short time... I will miss her.

Hardest part was digging her grave .. and letting her go..

thanks for everything... you fought a good fight little one.