And don't worry guys. I am OK. I promised friends that I would never harm myself. This was a hard decision to choose. But I believe I made the right choice. So please. Don't worry about me. I am fine.

Dude.. I feel like I did some thing wrong.. I'm sorry I we haven't talked much.. but why give them up..? I know I must not be a very good friend to understand. But when I looked to your chars I saw the hard work and pieces of your soul you put into them.. hell I barely use Sel or Fang like I use to but.. I love them so much to let them go.

I know I haven't been a good friend and sister.. but in my defence of silence.. I was locked out of my email on my phone and my comps down too. But that's neither here nor there.. what i want to say is I'm sorry.. I really am.. I hope you can forgive me. I'm just scared of losing friends right now too I guess that's why i stopped talking to a lot of people. I just clam up and pretend I don't exist. I guess tthat's how you must feel. But remember your friends are with you. Crys, Ashley, (I'm sorry idk what your girls friends name is sorry!) Your girlfriend, and myself are all always here for you. Even if its just to vent remember you have us and we'll listen.

You done nothing wrong.. Crys told me of your computer problems. Email I didn't know about.

And.. I just don't feel it in them anymore.. I tried to use them... Tried to draw them and everything.. But all keeps failing.. Like.. I was missing something.. I don't know. I just.. Don't want them to collect dust. And get buried in my gallery. I know you and Crystal will use them in love that they need.

And I know.. I'm just missing the good old times we had. And just feel my friends are disappearing slowly. I know I haven't be active. But I still care and want you as a friend..

I'm sorry too.

i understand.. i'll do what i can for you and the chars.

thank you. its okay. i won't dis appear. i always come back even if i seem like i vanish.. it just means i'm in deep thought..

you have nothing to be sorry over..

Thanks. I know Crystal said she'll hang on to Spike and Shaun and use them and if I ever want them back I just have to say the word. Who knows. Maybe once I get things settle and. Learned and get the help I need I may get that spark back again.

Thanks. Feels a lot better knowing that.

Feels like I need to say it. But OK.

That's good. Crys is a great friend to do what ever to help a friend out. I hope you get that spark back. I think everyone will miss it if its really gone. But.. later if you still feel like its the best to have them given to some one then 'I'll still help in what I can.

welcome. I've just turned into one of those quiet watcher types anymore. Lol

nope. You never need to say that to me. You haven't done nothing wrong. Kay?