I feel terrible, absolutely horrid...I did something I've never done in my life and hope to never do again...

I blocked someone. It's one of the reasons why I've been ghosting a lot lately, I was scared I'd run into him. He was really sweet, I mean we were pretty good Friendquaintenses.

It started out nice enough, we met on a server we were helping admin and got to talking, all seemed cool. He took a liking to my MLP:FiM Pirate Pegasus, Sommer Rose, back when she was still new and I was still hammering out parts of her personality and story. He'd ask questions and pitch stories to me, at first I thought "Ok, cool someone to toss ideas around with." Then the pitches started getting to the point where I knew Sommer wouldn't do/be that way. I had decided early on that Sommer'd be a Flirt but the kind that isn't looking for love, just the kind that knows how to work someone over to get what she wants. He started putting her together with his OC/Sona, I tried telling/hinting to him that Sommer would only flirt with him if she knew there was something in it for her, if he didn't have something or wasn't after the same thing she was, she'd have no interest in him. He didn't quite get it, I guess cause English wasn't his first language and I didn't know a way to gently explain it to him in a way he'd understand. So I just kinda skipped over it to save us both a headache. Time pasted and I started getting busy with things like helping out with my new Nephew and offline stuff as well as trying to get my own life in order. I'd have enough time to maybe re-post some stuff on Tumblr during some short downtimes but not anything past that like talking to anyone at length; He started messaging on Tumblr, me asking where I was and why I wasn't talking to him anymore, pointing out that he's seen me posting. I explain to him that I'm sorry but I'm busy, most of those posts are merely quick re-blogs and that I'm not ignoring anyone on purpose. He says he understands, goes quiet for a little while and I get busy again. Then he pops up again with the same questions and multiple messages, the main one being why am I ignoring him, I try to smooth things over again by saying the same thing "I'm sorry, I'm not mad at you or anything I'm just busy, please understand that. I will talk when I have the time." He comes back, saying that that's good because he's been having sad thoughts and thought of hurting himself because a friend didn't like him anymore. That sent up a big red flag for me and made me reeeeeally uncomfortable but like an idiot I ignored it because I've got a couple of other friends who suffer depression and sometimes they get into some lows and begin talking like that. So I get busy again and he goes quiet again. Then he pops up again with more messages and they quickly turn into "Why are you ignoring me?" again...At this time, I'm under a lot of stress, I'm tired all the time, and my nerves are shot to the point I was shaking. I snapped at him. Told him how I didn't even hardly get to talk to my friend OFFLINE anymore because I was so busy, let alone anyone online! "That's it..Let it go..." Was his response along with a paragraph that explained that he understood how I felt n all that but sprinkling in more of the fact that he has...certain sad thoughts.I got more of the feeling that I was being backed into a corner and I got scared. So I started doing what he said I was doing..Ignoring him and avoiding him anyway I could. I felt like I was always looking over my shoulder and I hated feeling that way. I couldn't talk to most of my friends properly in fear that he would see me. Well, the other day I finally got tired of it and clicked the ignore button next to his name on Tumblr....I forgot about Skype; He messaged me Yesterday, nothing bad, just a question of disbelief, "Did you...ignore me?". I panicked and ran to some of my friends, asking them, "What do I do?" I told them the situation and they all came to the same conclusion..."Block Him" Not wanting to be mean I hesitated but I knew it was the thing to do that was right for me so I blocked him on Skype. Then ran back Tumblr, deleted all my side blogs (I wasn't really posting to them anyway sadly), Turned off my submit box and deactivated Anon asks.

I cried on Muffins shoulder for most of the night last night, I felt horrible, I don't like having to be mean to someone especially if I once called them a friend. I just fell apart, it was the straw that broke the camels back, I've been under so much stress that I pretty much had a nervous breakdown...

The main thing I'm worried about at this point is Sommer, my characters are my babies, and While I hope this dudes sweetness was real and he won't do anything, One never knows sadly....

So I have a favor to ask of you guys, he's really big into Source Film Maker and has a Channel on Youtube where he posts his animations, can you guys keep an eye out for her and make sure she's not put into anything that's mean? Thanks

I'm gunna go and try to cheer myself up with some funny videos, movies and some music now...