As of late i've been struggling with depression, feeling rather pathetic and useless to everyone around me. Its been affecting me for a long time, and i cant help but feel that its been taking a rather bad toll on me when it comes to my friends. As much as i would love to get help, i can't even find a job to help me find the necessary help to pull myself through. Some days i feel happy and like a million dollars, others i feel low and rather like i should go crawl in a ditch and die, like tonight for example. Now over the past few years im sure there's been quite a few furries who've suffered from depression and... let it win by taking themselves out of the equation, i can assure you that while i have considered that option that i have not done that, and aim to win this fight. I just wish i had people to help me, and not try to tell me im doing it for attention... It hurts so bad that i've been thinking about taking a few steps back, forgetting everything i have and to find myself, hopefully to help me win this fight. I've lost a couple of friends myself because of depression, i really don't want to leave what friends i have left the same way they left me... I am sorry for all that i've caused, and wish that i could've been a lot more talented like so many artists... but all i have is nothing to show for it. No skills, no talents... hell, i can't even draw... All i have is the fear of dying alone...and the fear that has come true, and that is that i am never going to amount to anything.. im sorry for my rambling, and thank you for taking the time to read this...