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(Almost) 10 Years...
11 years ago
Stay tuned! More narcissistic awesomeness after these messages!
Can you believe it's almost been 10 years since I joined the furry fandom?
I can't remember the exact day that it happened, but I remember I was 19 when I started getting into YiffStar, now known as SoFurry. I followed YiffStar down into their MUCK, and met many furries. It was a very different time of my life. When I look back I barely recognize the person I once was. What I do remember is that my first impression of the furry fandom was so positive that I knew I never wanted to leave. I began to process of integrating it into my daily life, and it has been that way ever since. Everyone was so damn friendly and kind to me that I wanted to lose myself in that world.
I remember the furries I met, who were both innocently playful and promiscuous. I didn't know what I was getting into. I know that I was still finding myself as a person, and I owe a lot of who I turned out to be because of the people I had relationships with (both intimately and not).
Foxxy, Yashrim, CuteFoxBoy, Nova Draconus, Marcus, Anthony, Toumal, Aegis, Neko, Ogami, Arcis, Ceralor... and much more.
In the last ten years I have experienced much, both pleasure and pain. I have experienced my Crucible, and it has changed me as if baptizing me into someone completely different than I was when I started. Yet I can always look back and know that being a furry was a constant theme in the background, and one that helped me in the search for my soul. I will also say, without shame, that I would not have sexually matured as healthily as I have without the fandom.
I have transitioned a lot over the years, from the YiffStar MUCK to SecondLife, from Tapestries to F-List. I went on a long journey to find love, and I met some wonderful furs along the way. Some of those furries are my friends forever, even if I don't talk to them anymore because life has become so busy. There are some experienced that hurt, deeply, but they taught me lessons that became part of the foundation of me. They have become part of my moral spectrum.
There are days that go by that I reflect, sometimes with regret, that I have passed by my golden years here. Sometimes I feel those amazing experiences are forever gone. The deepness is over. Everything has stopped being so exciting, and has instead just become...stationary. It's there, like that painting on the wall that you once admired yet now neglect the intricate brush-strokes that drew you to love it when you first saw it. Yet, sentimentally, you could never see it NOT on the wall.
Yet, I try to tell myself that this is yet another transition. I have made close friends, people that I have hugged, kissed, and made love to in real life. The furry fandom moved from being something I imagined into being something I could touch. I have seen the real people behind those I've met here. All I want to do is keep as much of it as I can. I want that painting to come alive again.
If you've following me from the past, and you've gone this far in my journal, I ask that you please reach out to me. I would love to hear from you again, catch up, and reconnect. Even if I've forgotten your name, it would be rare that I have forgotten how you've influenced me. I'm terrible with names, to be honest, but that doesn't mean I've forgotten the designs and etchings in my heart.
To ten years...
And hopefully to ten more...
I love you all.
~Trith
I can't remember the exact day that it happened, but I remember I was 19 when I started getting into YiffStar, now known as SoFurry. I followed YiffStar down into their MUCK, and met many furries. It was a very different time of my life. When I look back I barely recognize the person I once was. What I do remember is that my first impression of the furry fandom was so positive that I knew I never wanted to leave. I began to process of integrating it into my daily life, and it has been that way ever since. Everyone was so damn friendly and kind to me that I wanted to lose myself in that world.
I remember the furries I met, who were both innocently playful and promiscuous. I didn't know what I was getting into. I know that I was still finding myself as a person, and I owe a lot of who I turned out to be because of the people I had relationships with (both intimately and not).
Foxxy, Yashrim, CuteFoxBoy, Nova Draconus, Marcus, Anthony, Toumal, Aegis, Neko, Ogami, Arcis, Ceralor... and much more.
In the last ten years I have experienced much, both pleasure and pain. I have experienced my Crucible, and it has changed me as if baptizing me into someone completely different than I was when I started. Yet I can always look back and know that being a furry was a constant theme in the background, and one that helped me in the search for my soul. I will also say, without shame, that I would not have sexually matured as healthily as I have without the fandom.
I have transitioned a lot over the years, from the YiffStar MUCK to SecondLife, from Tapestries to F-List. I went on a long journey to find love, and I met some wonderful furs along the way. Some of those furries are my friends forever, even if I don't talk to them anymore because life has become so busy. There are some experienced that hurt, deeply, but they taught me lessons that became part of the foundation of me. They have become part of my moral spectrum.
There are days that go by that I reflect, sometimes with regret, that I have passed by my golden years here. Sometimes I feel those amazing experiences are forever gone. The deepness is over. Everything has stopped being so exciting, and has instead just become...stationary. It's there, like that painting on the wall that you once admired yet now neglect the intricate brush-strokes that drew you to love it when you first saw it. Yet, sentimentally, you could never see it NOT on the wall.
Yet, I try to tell myself that this is yet another transition. I have made close friends, people that I have hugged, kissed, and made love to in real life. The furry fandom moved from being something I imagined into being something I could touch. I have seen the real people behind those I've met here. All I want to do is keep as much of it as I can. I want that painting to come alive again.
If you've following me from the past, and you've gone this far in my journal, I ask that you please reach out to me. I would love to hear from you again, catch up, and reconnect. Even if I've forgotten your name, it would be rare that I have forgotten how you've influenced me. I'm terrible with names, to be honest, but that doesn't mean I've forgotten the designs and etchings in my heart.
To ten years...
And hopefully to ten more...
I love you all.
~Trith
