So, if you read my last Journal, you saw that my dad died a little over a month ago, and to be honest, I've had a very tough time getting my life back on track since then. I've been trying to mourn and grieve, but it's been hard, work fucked up overnight hours, trying to be there for my mom, who has poor health herself, and does not drive, leaving all errands and whatever to me.

My nephew also moved in about 2 months ago, and has been a lazy slob ever since. Sure, he helps with mowing the lawn, but that's about it. He piles up trash in his room, then bags it up into like 4-5 garbage bags, and then leaves them outside his door, like it's my job to take them to the road, and his dog (yes, he has a dog too) has torn apart the bags several times, leaving me to clean it up! I've talked to him, but it's like talking to a fucking brick wall.

With all this, plus struggling finances and uncertain future, It's just taken a toll on me. Not going to lie, it has made me suicidal a few times, and caused me to lose a few friends, because I guess they didn't want to deal with a depressed Wusky...can't say that I blame them.

I just want to start over, start my life over, clean slate, build up, and be happy....because depression sucks.