So, I've been struggling with myself for a while now in regards to sexuality. To start, I'm gay leaning but definitely on the asexual spectrum. However I've been feeling just extra lonely. And I tend to imagine/develop crushes on fictional characters (otherwise known as fictosexual) and yet, it doesn't bring me happiness anymore. It brings me sadness, and frustration and yet I really also don't want any sort of actual sexual relationship so its like I feel caught between a rock and a hard place and just curious if anyone's ever felt similar. Ok end of pointless jabbering no one will see.