starting to feel slightly better, still have flashes of stress and nausea, and bouts of anxiety, but overall beginning to recover I guess. Haven't really gotten over blaming myself, and not sure I will, but have been doing everything to keep my mind from getting too occupied with it. Started drawing again, started playing video games again, and started talking to friends again, which has all helped. Idk, it might just be a phase of lifted mood, but I havent had thoughts of suicide in quite some time. And I think that is good.

tldr: feeling better for the moment, don't want to kill myself, still lots of selfblame, might post art soon.

Also, quit my shit job at the supermarket because fuck them. The last thing I need is being belittled by my bosses. Delivery job is still pretty cool, so I have that.