Hey everyone,

So, this is going to be a little bit of a serious journal today. This is a subject that has been on my mind for a very long time. I didn't really want to bring it up because I didn't really want to make a fuss over it, but a few things happened recently that made it hard for me not to talk about it. So here I go.

For those who can tell, I have a pretty ridiculous body. That isn't to say that I dislike the way I look, not at all, quite the opposite, I love who I am. And I am not hiding anything, I have a very healthy apatite for sex, that's no secret. I know looking the way I do is going to warrant some unwanted attention, but....its comments from others I know that really gets to me. I get a lot of people who ask me why I don't work in porn or ask me if I am going to get into stripping because of how I look....I have to tell them that just because I look a certain way doesn't mean I am going to let sex dictate my life. Most back down after I say that....but I can't help but think they think of me as nothing but walking boobs. I kind of expect that from strangers, but from people who know me better? It just kind of hurts. Its not just off handed comments like that either, I have had many people who look at me with disgust because of my body. I try to ware normal conservative clothing at work for the most part, so its simply based off of how I look that I get some ugly looks and (on occasion) nasty comments.

I think the worst was a canine anthro who saw me stalking shelves at work, came up behind me with her hands on her hips and told me "You are a disgrace to anthros everywhere. You should be ashamed of yourself." and stomped out afterwards. I promise you, I was wearing something tasteful too, my normal sweater and knee length skirt combo I wear on most work days. So to her, she felt obligated to say this to me, only because I am very well endowed.

So.....I guess all I really want to say in this journal is....I am a normal girl. I might post sexy pics here and their, I might have some steamy stories to tell some times, and I may look the way I do...but I have more to me than that. I am a gamer, I love just hanging out with friends, I love swimming and biking and the theater. I love playing DnD and trying new food and new things in general...I also love my body and I love sex, It would be silly to say that isn't who I am, but that's not ALL of who I am. And I not going to be shamed by who I am either, letting others tell me how I look is wrong or bad, or me enjoying my sexuality is wrong or bad.

I love who I have become, and I wouldn't want to change a thing about me.

I guess that is all I wanted to say. Thank you all for reading all of my journals thus far...and for venting today. And for anyone who feels the way I did, just remember who you are and love who you are.

~Lily