It's hard to give advice with this subject cause of it effects everyone differently the truth is life is difficult and can easily break us and make us feel like we mean nothing but that's never true people do care especially family and close friends, it may seem you are alone but you're not, my biggest advice is find something positive to keep your focus find that glimmer of light and don't let it go

thank you, I guess I just need a new motivation, but I'll try to stick to the people I care, is just a little difficult to me to express myself most of the time

I just don't want to bother anyone with my problems, but I got desperate yesterday, sorry about that

I completely understand I got through the same motions myself just try to keep your spirits up

Honestly, the change in season is a large factor in an emotional dip in frequenters of depression.
Being one of these people, I can testify to this personally.
I would also recommend a siesta from your usual schedule, potentially a vacation to reconnect with nature, or begin an exercise regiment.
All of those are healthy, active ways to help you stave off depression and help you ponder your existence.
Simply because you are not in school does not mean that you stop learning. Find something that interests you, and research it. Learn more about a subject that you Want to learn about; something that you enjoy and would like to deepen the wealth of your knowledge in.

Trying times are inevitable, but know that you have so much to learn and create within the world you exist in, Dom.

thank you for the advice, I really appreciate that you took the time to write this, I think I just want to be alright again, to stop feeling bad and continue with my life normally, I suppose is a lack of motivation, I lost it and I don't know how to find it again, but for now I think I'm going back to school, is not too late, gonna try once more, I think is for the best.

and sorry for all this thing, I don't want to be dramatic, I think I've got a little desperate yesterday

No depression is overly dramatic.
*Forcibly pulls you into a hug*
I know things are not all right.

thanks *hugs back tightly* and thanks for your kindness

I don't know you, I've only just happened upon your page. I was gonna go away again, but then I noticed your journal. Something is making me comment on this journal, but I dont know what. Just a feeling, I suppose.

When I was younger I had a lot of issues with depression and suicidal thoughts, and for many years I did not know why. I was capable in school, but I couldn't find the motivation to actually get it done. I was born a male, and for many years I believed that I was a straight male. Later, I would go on to date a boy. It was weird at first, but I accepted that part of me. For a while I then said that I must be gay, but then I settled on being bi. It was very hard for me to come to terms with this, but I have accepted it. I was a little happier, but still I was not happy. I felt bad because I had and have friends who care about me, I had a good job (I still do) and really I was in a good position in life. A couple years or so ago I started to really question my gender. It took me a very long time to come to terms with it, but I finally accepted that too. It's funny how I started out as a straight male, and now I'm a bi female. Along the way I was the entire LGBT lmfao

Anyways, the point I'm getting at is that I've gone through a lot and I've done a lot of self discovery, and today I can say that I'm a lot happier in my life. I can say that some of it came with age but most of it came with self discovery.

My recommendation to you would be not only what others have said, but just to take some time to yourself to relax and think. My whole point is that if what is making you depressed is not external, then it must be internal, and the only way that you are going to discover it is if you take some time to look inside yourself and find out what is really making you depressed.

Anyways, I do hope that whatever it is, you figure it out, and figure out how to proceed in your life happily <3

as for my gender and sexuality, I'm going to be honest, I've questioned myself about that for a long time, I haven't got to a conclusion and it's something that worries me a lot sometimes, but I don't know what to do, do you have any advice on what to do about that?, I ask because I think you have some experience with the matter >^<

I tend to think a lot in myself, trying to find what is the thing that is making me so unhappy, but I haven't found anything on my own, I'm going to go with a psychologist to see if that can help me to find a specific problem.

thanks for stopping by and give me your advice, for any reason you did, I really appreciate it

and sorry for answering after so long, I've thinking a lot in all the things people said here

Do what I did, have your close friends refer to you by the gender you think might be right, and then see if it sticks. I told friends that I was gonna try to be called a girl for just a little while, and that was like two years ago lmao

I found myself questioning a lot of stuff especially with gender and I've learned that guys who are really guys dont wonder stuff like that, like I'd really like to bear a child but physically I will never be able to do such a thing. It makes me sad on its own but at the same time that's an example of something guys just dont think about or want.

As for the gender thing, when I dated that one guy I said that I wasn't entirely sure yet if I was into guys or not yet and he said that he understood and it ended up being alright. I'm not saying to just go out there and date someone tho

Basically I remember I was holding myself back from discovering things about myself because I wanted to be "normal," but I learned that being normal is pretty boring. I've accepted that I'm pretty weird, and a lot of people know more or less how weird I am and they accept me. Dont worry about holding yourself to a standard if it limits who you are on the inside.

I think my problem with that is not about being "normal", actually I think I'm pretty weird, and I don't have any problem with that, I like to be weird, because be weird just mean you're different, and not another one in a crowd following the same things just because they do

my problem is with the people that is close to me, I know my family loves me, but I don't know how they would react if I even say something like that, even if it is just to find answers, I guess I'm scared, because I don't think I could live by myself if they expel me from the house

I understand that one, to be fairly honest my family does not know either because I am scared to tell them. I've been thinking that it's about time I do though, I want to start transitioning already.

It's taken me a while to be sure about it though. You should discuss all of this with your therapist too and see what they have to say about it