My grandfather fell today, he’s been home a while and the little bit of improvement he got while in the hospital just didn’t stick. He could barely lift a glass of water this morning.

I got a call a few hours ago and all he managed to say was “Help, I need Help”. He was so out of breath from just turning himself over and sitting up on the floor.

He went back to the hospital, and I think he really needs to stay there a while, but he’s so damn stubborn. He can’t take care of himself, and we can’t be around enough to make sure he’s getting everything he needs. There’s just too much to do every day, we’ve already fallen way behind on a few things.

The worst part of it, and the part that makes me really angry, the rest of my family has abandoned him. There’s no one else around, it’s just me, my brother, and my girlfriend… My mother and aunt aren’t ever around even though my aunt lives two doors over, and my uncle is just MIA. He was in France last time we had issues…

I just don’t know what to do, I can barely keep up. I have medical problems I’m trying to sort out and they make me pretty fragile. I can’t even walk my kid to school without being in pain, I’m constantly pushing myself to do more, but my body breaks down if I push a lot, and then I’m fucked for at least a day. I’m worried something’s going to break down really bad, I’d be fucked completely.

I feel trapped, I just want things to improve and they keep getting worse.