I don't even know where to begin. This journal won't contain any beneficial information, and I'm more-so writing this to help vent how I've been feeling lately.

School is incredibly stressful. I'm under constant stress with due dates and the never-ending studying. I feel like I don't have time to do anything that I want to do. I'm spending thousands of dollars and I'm not even sure that what I'm studying is what I want to do as a career.

On top of school, I'm balancing a job as well, working part time for less than $10 an hour. I can't afford to move out or live on my own.

School and work combined are very hindering. I've missed out on a few opportunities because I can't get the time off to get out and do whatever it is that I want to do.

There is a current family issue with a member of our family gone bad, and quite literally psychotic, to where I have actually feared for my life at times.

I'm incredibly lonely. I will say this, though: I'm sorry that I seem to have turned my back on everyone. Know that it isn't your fault. None of yours'. You have not chased me away, but I have been a terrible friend to everyone lately. I miss you guys, and while I don't have the time to talk to every one everyday, it means the world to me to hear from you guys. At this point, you all are seemingly the only people I have.

Overall, how am I feeling? Well, not okay. I can't remember the last time I felt "fine."

I know that none of this means much to anyone but myself, but... I don't know what else to say. I just really needed to get everything off of my chest.