I am leaving for a while.
A longer while.

I am not in the mood. I don't want to be in this state of mind.
Plus I FUCKING WROTE THIS JOURNAL FOUR TIMES BECAUSE IT KEPT ERASING.

anyway. It's four in the morning. Almost 5. I am getting tired to the point where I can't remember 5 words back. I'm a sad person, I know.

Lately that has been taken quite literally.
I feel dead.

My heart is a tad bit broken at the moment.

But you know what? It's alright.
I am a great person. I can do so many things.
I have the gift to be a great sympathizer.
Something not all people are born with.

I make fuggin music. Dude. That's something I would have died to see me accomplish when I was younger. I am learning how to fulfill a dream.

/somebody/ out there will appreciate me.

This all sounds selfish, but its a great thing to know how great we are as individuals.

Either way, the other day a friend told me this: "Dravin, be fucking selfish for once. It never hurts to get full of yourself every once in a while. All you ever do is focus on others and never on yourself."

It kind of hit me how true that was. Its crucial to worry about yourself and yourself only every now and then. (although some instances of this reasoning were a load of shit *cough*)

So anyway. I will be gone pursuing me.
If I do come back, it will be obviously to show off my art lul. Melodicat will be more active however, since I like to make music a lot.

I even might start up Youtube again! Although that requires a lot of energy and enthusiasm.
That I don't really have..

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The sort of dead feeling I have right now is either me being tired, my anxiety, or both lol

So I'd love to talk to some people again! I would love to talk to new people with new ideas and perspectives. My mind has been reserved for a LONG time. Its time to open it back up!

So if you want to chat, just let me know your Skype or messenger of choice or whatever.

Now. Im going to sleep probably. Goodnight.

Yeah I nearly just planted my face into my phone im so tired. xD