I've been really good recently until this past Friday when I received a call out of the blue from my ex-boyfriend... He and I are still friends, but he lives in Nebraska and I'm in New Mexico... In any case, he starts talking and I realize that he's crying... Keep in mind that we had been going out for years... Even though we broke up... he and I are close...

Sorry getting off track... my mind is going a million miles a minute and my hands are having an issue keeping up...

In any case... He's on the phone with me crying, so I asked him what was wrong, since he had found a girl that he really likes and they are wanting to take things really slow as to not mess up their future relationship, I thought that may be she had broken his heart... at least that is the first thing that came to my mind.... I was wrong... He called me because he had found out that his grandmother had passed on. I felt like crap after he had told me that.... but what made it worse is the fact that he couldn't think of anyone else to call when he did call me... It honestly felt like a dagger to the heart... I loved him and thought that we could still be close after everything that he and I had been through... but I sucked it up and was there for him in his time of need... I did my best to calm him down until he got to his destination of his parents place. (yes he was talking to me on the phone and driving, and crying on top of that... I even asked him to pull over so he and I could talk, but he refused) I did manage to cheer him up enough to stop crying over the phone at least...

I found out day before yesterday that he was gonna be in town and to be honest I didn't know what to think... So currently he is in town and I offered to be there for him and to be honest... it feels as though he is blowing me off.... I know that this is a difficult time for him and I have done nothing but be a shoulder for him to cry on... I just don't know what to do... I feel so confused and lost inside... I want him to be alright and I know from personal experience that things like this take time... I just want to be there for him...

I don't know... may be I'm just taking this a little too personal, but then again he posted on Facebook something that got me wondering... it was a picture that said the following...

"Cutting people out of your life doesn't mean that you hate them, it simply means that you respect yourself. Not everyone is meant to stay."

I honestly don't know what to make of this.... it seems like he is pushing me away and he is one of those guys that is awesome to hang out with... he has his issues, but don't we all?

What do you make of this situation?... I honestly don't know....