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2014's Death
10 years ago
WE INTERRUPT THIS YIFFING WITH A WORD FROM OUR FOX
2013 Recap: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5371693/
Ho damn this year was absolutely... ATROCIOUS! It would be no exaggeration to call this year the worst one I have experienced in my life thus far... Really... there is very little good that I can say about this year... but... I want to make it a tradition that I recap what has happened to me each year... so... And though it may be more informative to reread every journal I posted this year, the most important details all in one... how does that sound?
JANUARY
If one remembers my 2013 recap, I mentioned that in November and December, my physical health collapsed for a nearly inexplicable reason. January of this year was before the issues of this year really began to take hold. It was kind of like... leftovers from last year's trials... and I spent the bulk of this month trying to recover. But by the end of the month, there was a precursor to the impending cascading disaster when I started to drift further and further from my boyfriend at the time...
FEBRUARY
One of... if not the worst month... of not just this year, but in my entire life. It started when my boyfriend broke up with me early in the month and tried and failed to commit suicide. On Valentines Day though... he decided to take a new boyfriend to be happy on that day... and leave me all alone... He is the first of two lovers that I developed true feelings for... Then throughout the month I would try to take two other guys as my boyfriend. One of them did not love me; he just loved my yiffy RPing skills... and the other is a lying hypocritical piece of shit. And do not get me started on the insane libido I suffered this month. So much to be endured in this month... it's hard to continue... At the VERY least... I finished my first book...
MARCH
March usually is a bad month for me. It's no different this year, but... it's odd realizing that February of all months was the worst. But March this time around was bad because of February's aftermath. And this is when my health also took a sudden tun too. I cannot say it without getting a lot of TMI crap... but it was not pleasant. Not much happened this month... I just bode my time in healing... but at the end I took a fourth boyfriend in the year.
APRIL
But I quickly lost him this month. Because he remained without any faith whatsoever in me. He did not trust me and left me in a hurry. Though it did not hurt as much... I just wished he understood what I went through at that point and that it was I who shouldn't have trusted HIM... what a switcheroo if you ask me... but at least I had a friend of mine who was willing to try to help me... and he is the only boyfriend so far to have left me... yet we are still friends... But April was not bad for that alone. I had to have my health checked. And the preparation for that was so brutal... incredibly brutal... And the ACT did NOT make anything that much easier...
MAY
And BF #5 for the year leaves me on the very start of the month. Due to panicking over his libido and my suspecting that he only wanted to... yiff... Unlike #2 for the year... I felt love in his intentions and he actually cared... maybe if he wasn't so... impulsive... But at least the school year ends and lets me rest... I cannot say too much happened this month either... except the boyfriend who abandoned me earlier in the year tried to take me back... but of course he would flee again! I must have been so desperately stupid in the first half of this year... It might have been my own fault partially for this mess...
JUNE
He tried to take me back again for the second to last time... blah blah blah he ran away again blah blah... So this month was when I obtained my job at McDonalds to start raising money. Gotta say, though it was not a smooth start it DID take my mind off the crap I was enduring. I think taking this job started to improve my life a little bit as crazy as THAT sounds... And besides my "hiatus" not much otherwise happened...
JULY
Probably the best month of the year. The gem in the shit. It started a bit poorly when I learned that the faithless hypocrite that used to be my second boyfriend in the year was cheating on his current one. I swear if THAT had happened to me too... but I rescued said guy from him. And just a week later WE paired up...
And we've been together ever since... And I love him soooooo much...
AUGUST
Our relationship was put to the test when, guess who, tried to take me back again! The guy just would not... leave me alone! I was facing yet another drastic life changing decision. So what did I choose? I chose to let him GO. And I finally make the right decision... And that made me feel loads better about myself... especially after the super disaster of '08... So July and August... are the highlights of the year... they had problems... but all in all... not disasters!
SEPTEMBER
I made it back to Skype, I started taking pets and masters, and school began again. It seemed a switch in my lifestyle was put into order... and the guy who started all that pain in February... This was the very last time I saw him... and I just hope he is doing okay now... If he isn't it must be my fault for denying him for so long... But I digress! This month I saw a ridiculous snowstorm before fall! And I decided to make drastic changes to my book series... which will be made more apparent as time goes on... you'll see...
OCTOBER
To be honest... almost nothing interesting happened in October... Which is a good thing... better nothing at all than anything bad... My loneliness began to re-intensify because... I want my boyfriend right here right now! But... other than that... Nothing too special happened in October... Even though it seems I have rotten luck on the holidays this year... Halloween was an exception. All around an empty month... but I am content with that...
NOVEMBER
I was insecure about this month. Last year's November was when everything initially started to collapse, so I was afraid of a similar fiasco happening again. But thankfully I was worried about nothing. And when Pokemon ORAS and SSBU were released... yeah... but unfortunately, Thanksgiving was a disastrous pool of... ugh... Like I said before I HATE Thanksgiving... because I have almost NOTHING to be thankful for and the lack of family in friends REALLY hurts when I am constantly reminded of that fact every damn year! And one of my pets... just... please... you shouldn't forgive me...
DECEMBER
As we arrive to the present day, the beginning half of the month was filled with anxiety because of my impending 18th birthday. And when I did turn 18... not much happened except my ability to look at the pr0nz on this particular account. And that is about it... And I acquired Xenoblade Chronicles for my birthday which is putting my previous favorite games, Star Oceans 3 and 4 some SERIOUS competition! Seriously! THat game is absolutely beautiful! I hit the awesome milestone of at last reaching 100 watchers. And Christmas... was okay. One of my pets had a meltdown that dampened the mood, but overall... was no that bad...
SO WHAT IS NEXT?
2015 is... and after the disaster this year was... it is time for a new fresh beginning... a new challenge lies ahead in the future... and if I am destined to fail... then let me pull a Shulk... and change the future... seize so that it becomes MINE to control! I know that I still feel the pain of this year... and I will for a long time... but once I am back in control... I won't let whatever 2015 plans against me happen! I will do whatever it takes to make 2015 worth living... but what challenges must I avert? We shall never know until they come... as 2014 finally dies... and 2015 is born... a new beginning. A new challenge. Approaches...
Happy new year everyone.
And I hope 2015 goes great for you... but for me... that remains to be seen...
Ho damn this year was absolutely... ATROCIOUS! It would be no exaggeration to call this year the worst one I have experienced in my life thus far... Really... there is very little good that I can say about this year... but... I want to make it a tradition that I recap what has happened to me each year... so... And though it may be more informative to reread every journal I posted this year, the most important details all in one... how does that sound?
JANUARY
If one remembers my 2013 recap, I mentioned that in November and December, my physical health collapsed for a nearly inexplicable reason. January of this year was before the issues of this year really began to take hold. It was kind of like... leftovers from last year's trials... and I spent the bulk of this month trying to recover. But by the end of the month, there was a precursor to the impending cascading disaster when I started to drift further and further from my boyfriend at the time...
FEBRUARY
One of... if not the worst month... of not just this year, but in my entire life. It started when my boyfriend broke up with me early in the month and tried and failed to commit suicide. On Valentines Day though... he decided to take a new boyfriend to be happy on that day... and leave me all alone... He is the first of two lovers that I developed true feelings for... Then throughout the month I would try to take two other guys as my boyfriend. One of them did not love me; he just loved my yiffy RPing skills... and the other is a lying hypocritical piece of shit. And do not get me started on the insane libido I suffered this month. So much to be endured in this month... it's hard to continue... At the VERY least... I finished my first book...
MARCH
March usually is a bad month for me. It's no different this year, but... it's odd realizing that February of all months was the worst. But March this time around was bad because of February's aftermath. And this is when my health also took a sudden tun too. I cannot say it without getting a lot of TMI crap... but it was not pleasant. Not much happened this month... I just bode my time in healing... but at the end I took a fourth boyfriend in the year.
APRIL
But I quickly lost him this month. Because he remained without any faith whatsoever in me. He did not trust me and left me in a hurry. Though it did not hurt as much... I just wished he understood what I went through at that point and that it was I who shouldn't have trusted HIM... what a switcheroo if you ask me... but at least I had a friend of mine who was willing to try to help me... and he is the only boyfriend so far to have left me... yet we are still friends... But April was not bad for that alone. I had to have my health checked. And the preparation for that was so brutal... incredibly brutal... And the ACT did NOT make anything that much easier...
MAY
And BF #5 for the year leaves me on the very start of the month. Due to panicking over his libido and my suspecting that he only wanted to... yiff... Unlike #2 for the year... I felt love in his intentions and he actually cared... maybe if he wasn't so... impulsive... But at least the school year ends and lets me rest... I cannot say too much happened this month either... except the boyfriend who abandoned me earlier in the year tried to take me back... but of course he would flee again! I must have been so desperately stupid in the first half of this year... It might have been my own fault partially for this mess...
JUNE
He tried to take me back again for the second to last time... blah blah blah he ran away again blah blah... So this month was when I obtained my job at McDonalds to start raising money. Gotta say, though it was not a smooth start it DID take my mind off the crap I was enduring. I think taking this job started to improve my life a little bit as crazy as THAT sounds... And besides my "hiatus" not much otherwise happened...
JULY
Probably the best month of the year. The gem in the shit. It started a bit poorly when I learned that the faithless hypocrite that used to be my second boyfriend in the year was cheating on his current one. I swear if THAT had happened to me too... but I rescued said guy from him. And just a week later WE paired up...
And we've been together ever since... And I love him soooooo much... AUGUST
Our relationship was put to the test when, guess who, tried to take me back again! The guy just would not... leave me alone! I was facing yet another drastic life changing decision. So what did I choose? I chose to let him GO. And I finally make the right decision... And that made me feel loads better about myself... especially after the super disaster of '08... So July and August... are the highlights of the year... they had problems... but all in all... not disasters!
SEPTEMBER
I made it back to Skype, I started taking pets and masters, and school began again. It seemed a switch in my lifestyle was put into order... and the guy who started all that pain in February... This was the very last time I saw him... and I just hope he is doing okay now... If he isn't it must be my fault for denying him for so long... But I digress! This month I saw a ridiculous snowstorm before fall! And I decided to make drastic changes to my book series... which will be made more apparent as time goes on... you'll see...
OCTOBER
To be honest... almost nothing interesting happened in October... Which is a good thing... better nothing at all than anything bad... My loneliness began to re-intensify because... I want my boyfriend right here right now! But... other than that... Nothing too special happened in October... Even though it seems I have rotten luck on the holidays this year... Halloween was an exception. All around an empty month... but I am content with that...
NOVEMBER
I was insecure about this month. Last year's November was when everything initially started to collapse, so I was afraid of a similar fiasco happening again. But thankfully I was worried about nothing. And when Pokemon ORAS and SSBU were released... yeah... but unfortunately, Thanksgiving was a disastrous pool of... ugh... Like I said before I HATE Thanksgiving... because I have almost NOTHING to be thankful for and the lack of family in friends REALLY hurts when I am constantly reminded of that fact every damn year! And one of my pets... just... please... you shouldn't forgive me...
DECEMBER
As we arrive to the present day, the beginning half of the month was filled with anxiety because of my impending 18th birthday. And when I did turn 18... not much happened except my ability to look at the pr0nz on this particular account. And that is about it... And I acquired Xenoblade Chronicles for my birthday which is putting my previous favorite games, Star Oceans 3 and 4 some SERIOUS competition! Seriously! THat game is absolutely beautiful! I hit the awesome milestone of at last reaching 100 watchers. And Christmas... was okay. One of my pets had a meltdown that dampened the mood, but overall... was no that bad...
SO WHAT IS NEXT?
2015 is... and after the disaster this year was... it is time for a new fresh beginning... a new challenge lies ahead in the future... and if I am destined to fail... then let me pull a Shulk... and change the future... seize so that it becomes MINE to control! I know that I still feel the pain of this year... and I will for a long time... but once I am back in control... I won't let whatever 2015 plans against me happen! I will do whatever it takes to make 2015 worth living... but what challenges must I avert? We shall never know until they come... as 2014 finally dies... and 2015 is born... a new beginning. A new challenge. Approaches...
Happy new year everyone.
And I hope 2015 goes great for you... but for me... that remains to be seen...
If you- If anyone will need someone that they can talk to, I'm here
So happy New Year and see you all in the new, fresh, hopefully good 2015
Cheers!