Yeah, I haven't been saying much for new years or christmas for that matter, been somewhat busy for the past month and now I've started school again so I'm going to be more busy than ever. That means a bit less time/energy for art but I'll try to keep it coming, and still improve.

Truth be told I'm freaking scared of all this, because it's been so long I've been trying to get back to school and failing all the time, I'm thinking that if it don't work this time I'm just gonna move on and get a normal job for the rest of my days and that's going to be it. So afraid of failure that I already have a backup plan in case I do fail. I try not to think too much about failing but it'S hard because I'm scared. Vicious cycle.

I'm also thinking of finding a room/foster family instead of being in an apartment alone or always looking for a roomate (I have very few RL friends. Only 2 in fact). I could even have one that works with the hospital to take care of me as a mentally ill person. Normally these kinds of things are for the elderly, but they take care of most everyone it seems. It wouldn't cost me much more than I currently pay for my lonesome apartment.

Also this year I'll be turning 24. Gods where has the time gone, I know I'm still young but it makes me realize it's been 9 years I've been into art for one. Not much of improvement but still.

Anyway I talk too much, I,ll let it be for now.

See you next vent.
Darvo N.