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mini rant/ramble about current events.
5 years ago
So to put it simply, in terms of art, I have not been productive much at all. Other than the odd drawing once in a blue moon nothing's come out of it. I'm much more active on social media, namely Twitter.
Basically I'M still kinda searching what i want as a creator and in life in general. I thought i had it figured out by now (I'M almost 30 years old after all) but i guess when you don't have a clue, well, nothing seems to work. I still ahve that dream of getting into game dev somehow, but right now my hopes of achieving anythig meaningful in that regard are severely limited to my computer's piss poor performance. Therefore, videogames are my muse, as they have been for the past 11 years. It kinda makes me feel hopeless and meaningless/futile, but i do my best to live on. Put on the mask of the crazy/slightly stupid friend that always wants to see everyone smile. That and now more than ever i start feeling the effects of being socially withdrawn to the point of near-hermitage for 9 or so years. AKA: I'm lonely af lol. Tbh covid has made everything super shit, from getting my computer assmebled and delivered (that was supposed to be done in MARCH, but my friend suspects that the parts ahve been stolen in the mail, therfore we are now still waiting for a refund to try another approach), to maybe try to room with one of my close friends in London, Ontario but being cockblocked by covid again, to me having some financial troubles and ahving to borrow money... I don'T feel good about myself right now that'S for sure lol. But maybe 2021 will see some bright spots in my hilarious charade of a life.
I'm not giving up hope, not yet though. If anything, I nearly did recently, I'll be straight with y'all, but i have that one special guy who brought me back from the brink. No, not a boyfriend (he doesn'T swing that way despite all the cock-sucking jokes lol) but a very close friend dear to my heart.
Anywho, I think I've rambled on enough. Gods I'm an old man.
See you next ramble.
Darvo
Basically I'M still kinda searching what i want as a creator and in life in general. I thought i had it figured out by now (I'M almost 30 years old after all) but i guess when you don't have a clue, well, nothing seems to work. I still ahve that dream of getting into game dev somehow, but right now my hopes of achieving anythig meaningful in that regard are severely limited to my computer's piss poor performance. Therefore, videogames are my muse, as they have been for the past 11 years. It kinda makes me feel hopeless and meaningless/futile, but i do my best to live on. Put on the mask of the crazy/slightly stupid friend that always wants to see everyone smile. That and now more than ever i start feeling the effects of being socially withdrawn to the point of near-hermitage for 9 or so years. AKA: I'm lonely af lol. Tbh covid has made everything super shit, from getting my computer assmebled and delivered (that was supposed to be done in MARCH, but my friend suspects that the parts ahve been stolen in the mail, therfore we are now still waiting for a refund to try another approach), to maybe try to room with one of my close friends in London, Ontario but being cockblocked by covid again, to me having some financial troubles and ahving to borrow money... I don'T feel good about myself right now that'S for sure lol. But maybe 2021 will see some bright spots in my hilarious charade of a life.
I'm not giving up hope, not yet though. If anything, I nearly did recently, I'll be straight with y'all, but i have that one special guy who brought me back from the brink. No, not a boyfriend (he doesn'T swing that way despite all the cock-sucking jokes lol) but a very close friend dear to my heart.
Anywho, I think I've rambled on enough. Gods I'm an old man.
See you next ramble.
Darvo
