im getting real tired of it. so whats wrong with me? why is it that everyone seems to think the way isoud go is their way? why is it that the only real life friends i can keep are fucking ASS WHOLES!?! i duknow lets think about it for a few seconds... LETS start with where i live. well the location is wounderful, but you know what? tis not about the location but the people... so lets start with dear old mother, the controling bitch i call mother must think im like fucking SUPER MAN or something. she wants me to be indapendent, great, but she wants me to do it her way -_-, GEE what a great idea, HOW COULD I EVER become indapendent without HER HELP HUH? then lets talk about the asshole, i mean stepfather... OH WAIT hes not a stepfather, so the only way i can describe him is: my half brothers father, or my mothers boyfriend up to you really. hes a dick, he's always been a dick, what the HELL she sees in him is beyond me, but i suppose she's finnaly seeing him for the peice of shit that he is -_- great timing, lets have a kid THEN decide our partner isnt right for us, wouldnt be the first time... while we're at it, why not talk about my friends.... my "best friend" seems to think that best friends let best friends steal from them -_- ive really had it from him, ive probably lost thousands of dollars on him, i wouldnt be supprised... and my other friend hes good to me if you look at his actions, but hes a fucking DICK his personality is unbarable, he is so annoying and such a selfish little bastard being with him for a day is something i would PAY TO GET OUT OF, ooo lets talk about school next YAY, you know what? i fucking HATE SCHOOL! im tired of it, i've been tired of school sence i graduated from highschool, its been almost 3 years sence geuss what i've been doing *GASP* SCHOOL.... look i know school helps you get a better job, but it dosnt help if im not MOTIVATED TO DO IT! its a waist of money if i go to school and dont actually want to do it, because im not getting a damn thing done.... i failed all the classes i took last simester and at my rate im going to fail all the classes i took this semester as well. its not like i dont want to learn but its just low on my priority list and it feels like im not getting done what i WANT to be getting done! i WANT to get a god damn job, ive wanted that sence i got out of highschool. but NOOOO thats not good enough, my brothers got a year off of school, what do i get SHIT, AS usual, short end of the fucking stick AGAIN. OH did i tell you how my moms threatening me with kicking me out of the house for not doing something? YEAH, the eldest brother got kicked out because he brought pot in the house, the middle got cicked out for being a complette waist of space, me? im going to get kicked out for having ADD -_- YAY! at this point however i dont give a shit if she kickes me out, the STREETS would feel better then her house -_-. ITS NOT EVEN THE PEOPLE exactly, its the stress, the tension, the fact that every day i ask myself whats going to go wrong today?.... im tired of my parrents, im tired of my friends, im tired of school, quite frankly im tired of life.... for thouse of you who only seem to pay attention to me when i have a gun to my head no this is not a suicide note, its just a rant that i need to get off my chest. personally i dont know what im going to do, thats why im putting this up, because i would love to find out what my online friends think i should do.... i would have liked to talk to someone today, but its ok i geuss... there are more important things in life then me... *sigh*