Something happened quite recently that has me in great need of letting my friends know how important they are to me. So many folks I’ve been around few friendships like the changing of seasons & passing of years. Friends come & go as we age. I get that. I really do. I’m nowhere near as close with the folks I grew up with & went through high school with as I used to be. Doesn’t mean I don’t care for them. Then again I tend to care about everyone. All those that have come into my life as well as those who want to distance themselves from me. This is what’s happened and I hold no ill will toward this person. I’m not angry with them in the least. Mostly I’m angry with myself because for the most part, it is my fault. I’m not perfect. I never claimed to be. I know I have my quirks & flaws. I can be inattentive & aloof. I can at times be overly playful & silly. I can unintentionally say or do things that may be construed as hurtful or overly critical. I can also have anger issues as well as other emotional issues. I’m not the most socially gifted person. I could go on and on. One big thing though that some this day & age my see as a flaw is my big heart & my attempt to be as nice a guy to all as I can. That’s one flaw I don’t mind being saddled with truthfully. Means I’m living my life like I think I should as well as my personal walk of faith like I should.


Timing of this all really sucks no question. Have Valentine’s Day tomorrow & my 32nd Birthday Monday. Not that Valentine’s Day is all that depressing to me anymore. It very well could be given my history. So many times I thought I found her, that one for me only to have it fall away. I admit not so long ago I was really wondering if I was looking to the wrong gender for my soulmate. I knew better though. My heart’s always skipped a beat around the fairer sex & despite the track record of them tearing my heart in two; I don’t see that ever changing. I’ve grown more & more accepting though of my singleness over the years much thanks to my faith & my best friend. Admittedly though, with birthday 32 on the horizon, the clock is ticking louder in my brain. There’s still so much a part of me that believes my life is meaningless without the love of a woman. Without that bond, there’s just no purpose it seems. There must be though. I’m on this earth for a reason. Both I & my twin bro shouldn’t really be here now. We overcame a few long odds coming into this world. I often regret not having more siblings but after us sadly, there could be no more in our little family. I’m here though. I’m also doing real well for myself after a few rough starts after high school & college. There is purpose &, perhaps, there’s someone meant for me just around the bend. I’ll know it when I find it. It’s just a matter of never giving up & being open to the opportunities when they arise.


In closing, I just have to say thank you to all those wonderful friends who’ve put up with me & have stuck by me despite my many flaws. To those who feel extra alone this time of year, I’m letting you know right now I care about you & pray for better things to come your way. Be sure to be happy in what you do have. True friends are indeed one of God’s greatest gifts. Don’t ever take that for granted.