...That being someone who can do it all. Just not possible no matter how much I wish it was. So hey yeah how's everyone. It's pretty obvious I'm not round these here parts much anymore. Nice to swing by & update things. Also it's a good place to vent. Been a very stressful week for me at work. It's something that doesn't happen too often there. Still loving what I do a lot. Just suffering a lot of growing pains there as we all are as business has been to say the least...epic!!! That's most definitely a good thing. It's an awesome thing but with that & the focus on complying with more & more regulations, my plate can be extremely full & it's difficult to prioritize things. Definitely never can do so to please everyone but I try my best. For the most part, I'm still greatly appreciated but...every so often my fellow employees can tend to forget I am but one person. My title as Quality Assurance Manager is kinda comical given the fact I pretty much am the Quality Assurance Department. It is for the most part a well oiled machine run skillfully by Me, Myself, & I. Thus is the drawback of being a part of a small business. I still take the pros over that one glaring con any day though! We've become such a tight knit family & I can wear multiple hats as it were & try my paw at more flavor compounding as well as assisting in R&D. Coworker made an awesome pear & onion pizza in the test kitchen today. Paired with this balsamic reduction it's like a choir of angels in my maw:9 Wasn't testing anything, it's just creative things we like to do on Fridays. I can't ignore the fact though that as more & more business comes our way, it will be necessary for an assistant to be hired for me. As much as I would love that though it would be a difficult transition as I've always been a doer not a delegator. Always been the type to just do things myself & if I can't get em done then I can be pretty hard on myself which is what made Wednesday & Thursday of the his week particularly brutal. I could adapt though. Heck I'm mostly coyote! All we do is adapt & thrive in whatever situation we find ourselves in.

Honestly it's not just work that's had me down a bit this past week. It's been so hard for me seeing friends going through such difficult times & me feeling so powerless to do much to help. I always want to make things right but it's just not possible to help everyone. I'm also bothered by the fact that one person I interacted with regularly in the past all of a sudden seems to want nothing to do with me & doesn't even have the decency to tell me what's up. For the life of me I can't figure it out as I never said or did anything hurtful to this individual. I know I should not let things like that bother me but it just does. I'm such a nice guy almost to a fault. I try my best to get along with everyone though that's a tough thing this day & time. Folks can be so petty nowadays about things & yeah it's pretty sad. Life goes on though & someday perhaps I will come across this person IRL & have a good chat with him & figure out what happened & become at the least good acquaintances. If not though, it's ok. It really is ok. They'll always be those who will never warm up to ya no matter how good a person you might be. Again I am who I am & I know that that's someone who can't do it all. Just need to become better at accepting that & move forward.