Hi everyone! As nice as it is to finally be away from all the crazy hustle and bustle and loudness of the con, I had a lot of fun and met a lot of great people!
I stayed in the cub hub this year with some of the other Little and babyfurs/cubs/diaperfurs/abdls and I hope to be able to do that again next year, it sure was a lot of fun! On that note, it took me a while to warm up to the everyone, at least it felt like to me. I know I had people ask how I was always so comfortable with everyone, which I found complimenting, if inaccurate lol. Its not that Im comfortable with everyone or even around huge crowds of people,matter of fact, while I dont struggle with full on panic attacks, I do tend to get very anxious, especially around people I dont know. SO I can either run away from them, or force myself to interact with them until I begin to feel more like Im not surrounded by a bunch of possible enemies intent on causing me harm or taking advantage of me.Most people who have met me dont tend to believe that Im actually more of an introvert. I like to talk to people and be around people, but at the end of the day Im a shy introverted cub. The difference is that I was alone without friends for a lot of my life, and because of my history(which I wont go into here, suffice to say, No one recognizes me for the violent, angry fighter,I used to be, and thats a very good thing these days. Ive come a long way ^^) I learned as shy as I was, I hated being alone. I used to struggle a lot with making friends, but the doctors said I had to learn and so I got help from various programs and organizations to help...'socialize me' I guess. Taught me how to interact positively with others, and they helped ^_^ Albeit those were a long time ago, so again, Ive come a long way, but ya know, its a learning process!
By the end of the con, I was, for the most part comfortable with the people who were staying on my side of the 2 adjoined rooms. Not that I had anything against the others, I just have some trust major issues from my past Im still working to get over, and I didnt actually venture over to the other secondary room for any amount of time lol.
Funny story that happened when I arrived on Friday. I went and got my room key, and set about for registration. By the time that was over, I visited the dealers den and artists alley, I think I went to a panel and eventually made it back up to the room around 7 or 8pm. Now when I had arrived earlier and picked up my card key and dropped all my stuff off in the room, there was all of 3 people at the time, and 2 of them, Jeffy and Alika, were leaving, so it was really just me and 1 other. Whn I got back into the room that night there were prolly...10-15 people in there, and I recognized all of..no one. I walked around awkwardly trying to build up courage to talk with people, and eventually panicked and got out of dodge. I went downstairs and ran around trying to find any reason not to go back upstairs to the room alone, and that worked for a brief period of time, but eventually I needed to go back to the room around..Iunno prolly 10ish? Got to the door, took some deep breaths...and went in. Same thing happened. I was surrounded by a whole bunch of people I didnt recognize, except from my brief brief walk in from earlier that day, and even on the other side no one I knew. I told myself I wasnt leaving that time because I had nothing else to do. So I stood around awkwardly trying to find a way to insert myself into any conversation or find a common ground point, anything at all to break the anxiety. Didnt work. I ended up running back out of the room to get some air and recollect myself haha. 3rd time was the charm, maybe an hour later I walked in and bit the bullet and while I didnt make much progress, with my back up against the wall, thankfully people started filing out and some others that I DID recognize walked in. One of those moments when only realize how stressed out you were AFTER the situation ends lol. I knew I was anxious and nervous, but when a lot of those people walked out and someone I knew walked in, sheesh I realized how nice it was to finally take a deep breath. My shoulders had actually gotten a bit sore from being so tense.
So..yeah, a glimpse into the 'comfortable around people' side that people dont get to see ^_^;;

On a different note, I saw a lot of great art and great suits, got a lot of great art tips from artists in the artist alley, and while I dont entirely believe them, I told I knocked 'Drops of Jupiter' by Train, out of the park at karaoke, and I even had people later on come up to me out of nowhere just to tell me how much they enjoyed it! Ive been practicing a lot and improved a lot over the last year, and with my ultimate goal to be able to audition for The Voice or American Idol or some singing show, just to see how Id do, and maybe get some professional coaching in, comments and compliments really helped me feel like I had actually made progress. Last year when I did the Karaoke, same song, people told me it was good, and I felt it was good, but it wasnt great, judging by the applause and general enthusiasm. This time, I think it was considerably better, and I had most every eye on me in the entire lounge by the end of it, and I remember a few people stood up, which is a noticeable difference from last year!!!
True story, a second look at the 'comfortable in front of people'.
I was so nervous I was already shaking slightly before the song had even begun. By the time the music actually started, not the singing, just the instrumental opening started, My hand was visibly shaking. Mid song I had to grab the wireless mic with both hands because for the life of me, my right hand and arm was shaking so badly, to say nothing of my legs, that I COULDNT PHYSICALLY KEEP THE MIC IN FRONT OF MY FACE WHILE I WAS SINGING. Hahaha when I finished the song and got my applause and everything I walked off to the side and told my friend I had to sit down before my legs gave out, and as I casually started to bend my legs to sit down on the floor I realized my legs were through with me and I kind of gracefully fell over indian style..ish.

I got to meet one of my all time artist inspirations Marci McAdams to pick up my very first ever babyfur badge(Im official now), that I was grinning ear to ear and I know after meeting her I kinda just walked around lookin like a big dumb, smile so big my face my break, and squeaking incoherent babble because I just had no idea what to say. Im sure it was mildly embarrassing at least for my new friend  cobaltgear who was kind enough to walk around with me a lot the first day and some the second ^_^ Good times.

I ate roughly...well...lets see
I got to my friends house thursday night, we ate there. Stayed the night, got up, both decided we should see what food would be available once we got to the con, and if we needed to we could always drive somewhere if we didnt like our options. So...yeah...didnt eat friday at all.
Saturday I ate a handful of my fruit loop...ball things(seriously, they are like fruit loop flavors but...in a ball like a crunchberry) straight from the bag without milk, and proceeded to not eat again until about 830 that night when I hd all you can east sushi bar at a place called Osaka.
Also found out that raw fish apparently wins the mma beatdown against my irritable bowel syndrome. So, note to self, I will never ever again eat the the raw fish kind of sushi. I will stick with the sushi balls. The rest of the night and a good portion of friday my stomach was hella upset and my preventative medicine and stuff to help with it was useless against the powers at play. Like...my medicine, even in high doses...my medicine was playing football, my stomach was playing no holds barred MMA Rugby meets olympic gymnast.

All that aside the Babyfur Olympic games were held saturday night after returning from sushi, and man were the games fun!
Bobbing for pacis, chugging a low-flow bottle with water in it, blindfolded babyfood taste testing lol, and a couple others, fun and funny times, thats for sure!!

Fursuit dance competition was awesome, I didnt compete given that I dont have a fursuit yet, and I dont know the first thing about dancing. Ive got a square. And I will dance inside my zone. Yup.

Couple other panels I attended were meh, main highlights were meeting all the people and hanging out with friends! Karaoke, babyfur olympics, sushi was a fun experience, even tho I will certainly never pay 45 bucks for a buffet as long as I live again, I dont care HOW nice it is or HOW MUCH FOOD they have. Never again. Also raw fish. Never again. Never never never again.

A super thanks to everyone who I met and who was nice to me, to all the furs in the cubhub who helped me feel welcome and embraced me when I felt scared or encouraged me when I was feeling left out or anxious. Thanks for all the hugs and snugs and people who commented on my art, who complimented Mochas character design, and in general everyone who put a smile on my face. Im happy to say that I made at least one new follower and even got someone who was interested in a commission because of my art, so thats also quite flattering ^_^


Thanks to everyone and I hope you all had as much fun as I did!