it's been a couple of years since I've lost half my family due to various problem... beloved family I'll never see again... an empty void I can't fill that has lead to a spiraling out of control amount of spending to try and fill myself with an empty joy.
I have no RL friends, just ones I chat with online.
I have a job that I hate and cry almost every time I have to go back for another week of it.
I have so very little left...

when I saw two of my virtual friends for the first time in presence I felt some warmth some love and hope I can't remember when..

Then when we parted ways the void consumed me stronger...

I feel emptier each day as I struggle to find an ounce of hope.

All I want is to sleep.. at least in dreams I can be happy.