It's funny the only place I run to when feeling depressed is here, but this is the only I say how I feel or just vent about things without people really saying my business to everyone at work or anything.
Well the reason i'm feeling this way is because I had my feeling hurt and I don't know how to tell this person that what he said really hurt my heart. This happen yesterday and just really made my day crap because it keeps snow balling into other thoughts and making me even more upset and depressed. But pretty much being called ugly when I fight soo hard with weight over issues to have someone say that just hurts sooo bad, and the thoughts going through my head are your too ugly to get a date,your too ugly to get married, to ugly to have children with, I know in my mind that is not true but my heart and mind are not on my the field and my heart is winning. I'm just confused on everything right now heck just that one word could send me spiraling down sooo fast. And I don't even know how to tell him how that really hurt, my fit thing was to just smile and act like nothing happen all the time feeling like a kicked puppy.
I ready don't know

Why am I always the friend
Why can't I be seen as sexy
Why can't smart and fat
Why can't I make myself happen when I make others feel better
Maybe I'm just ugly on the inside as well as outside
I will always be alone
I'm a loser
Can't cute and skinny



What is wrong with me