Today I went to the vet to try and help my dog. She was in pain an now she isn't. But I can't help but wonder why couldn't we have went to the vets last night. Then I wouldn't be in this pain. I miss her like none other. Like I said my dog was my bestest friend. She could always cheer me up. Now that she is gone all I see is a black foboding future. I'll never find another dog like her. There can never be another pepper! I wont be able to sleep well tonight or the rest of the nights for months now. Knowing that i'm responcable for her no longer being around. As i should have said something to get her to the vet that very night! I feel so so shitty i just can't help but wonder, Why?