Yesterday the Supreme Court ruled that Obamacare be upheld. Given how it became "law" this is nothing short of corruption.

When the highest court of the land refuses to be just, you know things are getting are getting worse.

Now, comes a ruling that says that, despite the vast majority of Americans opposing it, every state must recognize homosexual marriage.

In my opinion these two rulings wreak of the same lawlessness.

Now comes the difficult part for me to admit. I am not some person repulsed by homosexuality who does not and cannot understand what it's like to be attracted to someone of my own sex more than I want to live life.

On the contrary, this far in my life I have only ever slept with men. The last time I had full on sex with another man was 17 years ago. I screwed up with my best friend not long ago but it did not get too far. That is the closest I've been to someone sexually in almost twenty years.

I've not so much as seen a woman naked in real life. The only time I've ever been french kissed was by a married woman who was trying to hit on me.

Some of you may know this about me, the reason I have remained aloof from the opposite sex is due to trauma in my childhood. Women have the ultimate power over men. We are physically stronger, but a woman can destroy a man.

I am living proof of that.

I never got over what was done to me, and what was said to make me feel so far away from the idea of being close to a woman. My male peers molested me at the same time, the transition was easy.

I am simply too damaged.

So... When I say what I say, it is not as a casual observer, it is as someone who has lived that lifestyle. Who struggles... Every second, every minute, every hour of every day for a week... or more, sometimes. I shake and sweat enduring the temptations sometimes. Dealing death to my flesh, to what I want more than anything, even life and God.

I often hang only by a thread.

This case of legalizing homosexual marriage is a shot across the bow. This is a warning...

I know many of you are practicing homosexuals. Many... This website seems to flaunt homosexuality.

I see pictures of anthropomorphic animals engaged in various forms of sodomy... It is so unrealistic. Smiles are had, usually just the slightest amount of discomfort is noted... The contrast of reality is enough to make one sick.

My first time I almost passed out from the agony of it. It was horrible. I thought it was what I wanted... As in my childhood I was exposed to, and taught that I needed to be with someone of the same sex. I remember molestation at the hands of my peers, and little else, except for flashbacks of abuse. God only knows what happened when my mind was blanking out and I was losing years of life. I do want to know. I do want to understand what happened to me when I was a child. It is a need. I need to know. Or I cannot progress.

Yet, strangely, after I recovered, I wanted more. It got riskier and riskier. Because each new experience never seemed to live up to the temptation. Yet, I craved intimacy the only way I knew how. The easiest way of all: A horny young man seeking sex from horny, older men. Yeah, like that's NOT going to happen.

At the time I was also selling and doing drugs. It only boosted my libido.

"There's nothing wrong with that"

According to the CDC, Gay men comprise of just 2% of the population, yet they are responsible for 3/4 of all new HIV infections. For people to ignore this statistic shows a major logic block in the mind.

Why do people turn their heads at what gay men are suffering? Why do well meaning people with zero experience with the gay lifestyle continue to say, "There's nothing wrong with that"?

In my opinion, because ditching my biological purpose as a man, and seeking to circumvent that by chasing other men, I am denying Gods purpose for my life. Which is to find, woo, and marry a woman. That is in celibacy. Sex destroys marriages if it is done before marriage, in my opinion.

There aren't too many people who cringe at what the Bible says more than I do. It doesn't sit right with me, and to be honest, I am disgusted some of what is said there. But that doesn't make it untrue.

Gods laws are tough, but they are there for a reason. 75% of all new cases of HIV and AIDS are proof of the dangerous, lawless, godless lifestyle most homosexuals live.

Gays are at risk for suicide. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/art.....es/PMC3662085/

It's not because of persecution, although feeling isolated or hated is certainly depressing. I've been called a faggot, been picked on, slandered, even by men who were gay. In fact I had to quit a job I loved because I was being harassed by a gay man who wouldn't leave me alone.

But in my opinion, the root cause of depression isn't people not accepting them. Since when does your life happiness depend on what other people think? That is very weak.

If love was real, pure, and true, it wouldn't matter what anyone thought. It wouldn't matter if the entire world was chasing you and your mate down with pitchforks and torches, you would cling to her twice as tightly then.

No, again. Turning your back on God, and on obvious physiological functioning of your mind, heart, body and soul will always result in depression.

Gods way is harder to follow for some than others. For someone who has had their soul twisted to desire someone of the same sex for all of their sexual satisfaction, Gods ways are very difficult.

It is because Satan is real, very real, and yes, despite what ministers have said, he knows not only your thoughts, but also, and much worse, he knows what you are feeling. Satan is the master manipulator... Which is why God says manipulation of people is witchcraft. For rebellion is like the sin of divination, and arrogance like the evil of idolatry. Because you have rejected the word of the Lord, he has rejected you as king” (1 Samuel 23)

http://bibleresources.org/witchcraft/

I recall from an early age how I hated God, and how I became bitter towards Him. How I had strange impulses and desires that consumed me, tormented me until I satisfied them. Things that were perverse, ungodly. Seeking forms of sexual satisfaction that had nothing to do with nature.

I began to see myself spiral out of control, and I knew I was heading for disaster. I had two drug overdoses. I would sleep with men anywhere, any time. In parks... It was getting worse. I knew if I didn't stop it I would end up with HIV. I took a HIV test and was pronounced negative, and I fled from the lifestyle.

Romans 1:25-27 25For they exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen. 26For this reason God gave them over to degrading passions; for their women exchanged the natural function for that which is unnatural, 27and in the same way also the men abandoned the natural function of the woman and burned in their desire toward one another, men with men committing indecent acts and receiving in their own persons the due penalty of their error.…

Since anal sex is all I have ever known, I have seen my fair share of porn. Straight and gay. Seeing the reaction of a woman who is being sodomized for the first time is truly awful. What is being done to her body, her soul, her mind, and her heart, by a man who says he loves her, when she is baring her body to him, for him to injure her like that is absolutely detestable. It is dirty and degrading for her. It is leaving the natural use of her body, and I believe, is a damnable sin if not repented of and stopped.

I am getting off track... I wanted to say that today was a dark day for this country. They are attempting to legitimize and legislate what is dirty, filthy, immoral. One- sided in pleasure. No male soul was designed to come as close sexually with another male soul- this is why men and women are different. Born different. In nearly every way.

True love can exist between men, even stronger love than can be had for a woman, as in the case of David and Jonathan.

But that love never progressed sexually. I can say that had me and my best friend engaged in full on sex we would not be friends any more today. It is a mistake. There is no such thing as friends with benefits. If it ever happens, I can no longer so much as talk to him. My soul is simply too precious to risk.

I know that as much as God loves me, if I return to the homosexual lifestyle, God will not have mercy on me. If I die in my sins I will face judgment. I almost went here, if it were not for the mercy of God: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dWXkBBIaiVc

Hell is very real. Those people in that video are awaiting Gods judgment, to be sent into the lake of fire where they will writhe and burn in horrifically indescribable agony not for a year, not for a hundred years, not for a thousand years, or even a million- but for forever. For eternity. It will never end for them. They will not get used to it. Revelation says this about those who end up in Hell because they took the mark of the Beast. I imagine everyone who ends up in the lake of fire will suffer similarly: "

And the smoke of their torment will rise for ever and ever. There will be no rest day or night for those who worship the beast and its image, or for anyone who receives the mark of its name."

It's not torment like your brother torments you with a doll or insect. It is torment like being submerged in rock that is so hot it is liquid- and never being fully consumed, always burning.

How the ministers of today have utterly failed the American church. No one teaches on substance, they want to stick to the love of Jesus... and nothing else. No minister wants to cast demons out of people, though the majority of people are infected with them.

The thought that because Jesus died for our sins, homosexuality is now no longer an abomination is unbiblical. It is still leaving the natural use of your body. It is still the forsaking of your purpose on earth.

For every effeminate, overly sensitive gay male out there, there is a woman, who, had he of stood up, fought his desires, sought God and deliverance, turned from his ways, who would have made him the happiest man on Earth. Instead, he is pursuing fleeting, almost nonexistent pleasure.

It is the same for lesbian women. This world is brutal, and sick, and many men are selfish, cruel, and evil. Giving up on the hope of someone loving you is not the answer. Succumbing to the false idea that all men are evil, or selfish, or only want sex will keep you in a lifestyle that will prove ultimately empty, as like I once did, you are turning from your role in life. Anger, bitterness, fights, violence may result.

nobody can ever fully run from the desires God has put in them.

God is Love, yes, but His love is not like our love. Nobody considers that despite Gods Love, most people are going to Hell:

Matthew 7:14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

Few ministers want to tackle the fact that God loved most of the people who are going to suffer for eternity, never to end.

Matthew 7:22,23 22"Many will say to Me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?' 23"And then I will declare to them, 'I never knew you; DEPART FROM ME, YOU WHO PRACTICE LAWLESSNESS.'

That goes for Christians who support homosexuality. "There's nothing wrong with that!" There's plenty wrong. Although i disagree that same sex frottage is okay, "The anus is not a vagina" web page has detailed explanations on why anal sex is a slow death. The lining of the intestine has only one cell thickness before it hits highly vascular (Meaning lots of blood) tissue.

The colon has one goal, and that is to keep feces, which are 80% bad bacteria) from getting into the blood stream, and to absorb as much useable nutrients and liquid from it as possible. It was never designed to be penetrated, as the anus was never designed to have anything enter it, which is why your instinct is to clench when something tries to go in.

This is not some ancient, cryptical knowledge to be dug out of cave drawing of the ancients, this is simply fact.

The anus and colon were never designed to be safely penetrated. It is a risky behavior. Artificial lubricant is needed every single time, in almost every case of sodomy. It is painful, demeaning, and humiliating for one party (Most homosexual get used to it. Or they learn to enjoy it) and pleasurable for the other.

God designed sex to the the height of closeness, of bonding two human beings can achieve. Not something to be endured, or suffered, or gotten used to, or enjoying the way someone demeans and subjugates you as an object. That is not love.

The Supreme Court has attempted to legitimize what is perverted. The mixing of semen, blood, and feces as sacred enough to warrant a marriage vow. The shirking of our biological design. Ditching the long, difficult, painful path of self improvement for the quick, easy satisfaction that takes little to no effort in my experience.

I am thirty five years old and have been alone for almost twenty years. If you think it is painful, you are correct. God has given me desires that have become curses because of my twisted desires. There is much pain and self denial.

For the Christians:

You cannot support homosexuality, or glorify it. It was an abomination to God in the OT and it still is today.

1 Corinthians 6: 9-11 9 Or do you not know that wrongdoers will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor men who have sex with men 10 nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. 11 And that is what some of you were. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.

God made provision for two men to love one another. But it was never to get sexual. Today homosexuality has ruined much of what could be considered close friendship between two men. It is lawlessness. Those who partake in it seek ever more destructive things in a futile attempt to find the fulfillment they are desperate for.

I have never loved a man like I love my best friend. I love him so much I do not know what to do. But sex is the fastest way to utterly destroy what we have. Corrupt, taint, and ruin it with filth. I do not have a vagina and neither does he.

Do not look up gay porn, do not favorite it. 1 Corinthians 6:18 Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body.

Flirting with gay porn and not realizing what it is doing to your soul to view it is not fleeing immorality. It is embracing it.

If you struggle with homosexuality as a Christian I will help you the best I can. but ultimately you must make the changes, you are responsible for purifying your heart and drawing near to God. I cannot be your crutch. You must stand on your own, but I will try and be there for you.

Finally, deliverance. If you want to flee from sexual immorality, there is always a curse or demons associated with it. They are Satans tool for twisting good people and making them perverted. They are manipulators... And they will never tell you the truth: They want to kill you, and bring you down to Hell with them by any means necessary.

Here is one of the best videos I have seen on deliverance:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znPYH_Sg5lY

Watch it, watch it, watch it. Watch his other videos. There are demons behind most mental illness and addiction you cannot kick. Especially sexual vices and addictions, even masturbation. It will empower you, and might be the missing link your pastor has no idea exists.

This is something I need to do. To write this out for anyone who might be asking, "Is it hopeless? Must I always live this way?"

I went from a misogynistic homosexual to someone who cries out over the way women are treated today. I want to gather up women who are hurting and show them the purest love I possibly can... Show them they are so valuable. More valuable than all the treasures in the world.

My only hope for anything resembling fulfillment is to fulfill my biological identity as a man. And more than that, to love her, and to be loved by her. That is the goal. Nobody can ever fully repress what God has put in them. A desire to be loved. A desire for affection. With all this sexual deviancy going on, we are seeing the result of that:

http://www.wnd.com/2015/06/untold-d.....ransgenderism/

Stick to the narrow, difficult path. Soften your heart to God and realize that you will receive milk, and not meat, from most churches in America. Which is the reason for the ruling we saw today.

Again, watch this video, and do not be afraid. I have been attacked by demons, brought to lust, all sorts of things. They tremble before God.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=znPYH_Sg5lY

Right now God is calling you to turn from your sin, and to believe that Jesus Christ is your only hope. Say it with your mouth, and believe it in your heart.

Romans 10: 8-10 8But what does it say? "THE WORD IS NEAR YOU, IN YOUR MOUTH AND IN YOUR HEART "-- that is, the word of faith which we are preaching, 9that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved; 10for with the heart a person believes, resulting in righteousness, and with the mouth he confesses, resulting in salvation.…

It is a difficult road. But the reward is worth it. I do not want to have your blood on my hands because I never said anything about how wrong homosexuality is.

Ezekial 3:18 18"When I say to the wicked, 'You will surely die,' and you do not warn him or speak out to warn the wicked from his wicked way that he may live, that wicked man shall die in his iniquity, but his blood I will require at your hand. 19"Yet if you have warned the wicked and he does not turn from his wickedness or from his wicked way, he shall die in his iniquity; but you have delivered yourself.…

Hell is filling up with people who went their own way and turned their back on God. Don't be one of those people. It'll be the most difficult thing you'll ever do. Not too many preachers will tell you that. Some times we go through Hell on Earth so we do not end up there after we die.