vent
10 years ago
General
was gonna do a picture but i'm really art blocked and I don't have enough of a drive to art anymore
alright so basically like I said before I don't have much of the drive to make art anymore, I hate everything about my art, how inconsistent it is how ugly it is and everything in between.
I hate that the fact no matter how much I draw it always looks like i'm drawing in some other artists' style , I hate the fact that when I look at my art I sometimes like what I see but when I check my messages and I see what the people I watch/ follow have done I get angry at myself and then I read the comments and see people saying things like oh this is gorgeous, gosh you're so talented, I wish I could draw like you or you're so good, and I can't get mad at the artist b/c they actually have talent its no wonder why some people just breeze past my art and look at the people's art who actually belong here, and I don't really feel like I belong here, I don't feel like i'm good enough to be on here. But that's just how life is right? You either have something or you don't and a lot of people on here do.
I always think that after this little mood of mine passes then i'll doodle but lo and behold its in some other artists' style, I think to myself alright maybe if I do what they do maybe i'll get better and find my own style but surprise surprise it never works, and then I have to come to the realization that i'm a talentless, worthless copy-cat
it baffles me at the number of watchers I have and my art isn't even that good, and this isn't a recent feeling i've been thinking about this for a fucking while, and it really bums me out...at this point ladies and gents i'm really stuck I want to quit b/c it seems that my drive will never come back so like..yeah, maybe i'll take a hiatus, who knows
i'm sorry this seems like the only type of journals I post but, my life is pretty boring and nothing really fun happens that I would share
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but I can't help to feel discouraged,style to me is very important and I don't want to be labeled as a style thief because it makes me feel like I wasn't able to come up with something on my own and I had to use a style from another person to whom I look up to just to get a picture to look right I've been told by a loy of people that it's okay to get inspired by other people's work but just make sure to put your own spin on it as long as you do that it should be fine and as time, practice, and just determination I guess will help you to find your own style and what does and doesn't work for you. Even though there are a lot of people that I look up to on this website I can't seem to make it not difficult to draw something from those whom I aspire to be I look at one artist and say Wow their lineart is really smooth or their style is very eye-catching and that's one of the things that scare me if I'm trying to Frankenstein my style with someone else's and someone notices the similarity of said style that I will be called out on it and I don't want to upset wonderful artist whom I got the style from
the mentioned picture I tried to do for example while I was sketching it I saw 3 or four different artist styles and that was what made me get art blocked, and I was getting so frustrated w/ myself and even said that I hated myself for always doing this and not knowing how to stop it...I'll probably end up taking a hiatus and try to find something that inspires me, but until then I guess I'm just gonna have to be careful whenever I pick up a pencil or plug my mouse into my laptop, and when I submit some art get through the anxieties that come when I know that someone else's style was mixed in with mine.
Or even remotely as good as yos
Your art is amazing, and never forget that. It's very unique, and absolutely stunning. I wish I had your skills!
Taking breaks is always good for your mentality, but you have a real talent here Queenie Weenie, and it's a talent that'll be hard for you to run away from
I like to think people dont comment as much because your art is too good for words, which is indeed true, and that applies to every artist ever
I'm glad you think my art actually has some value, I really appreciate it
yeah breaks are nice, and hopefully when I take mine I'll feel better about my art even if its just by a little
bit.
we'll just have to see what happens, but again thank you so much, you're the best cinnamon apple ever
//paps your face
hhh
//huggles
//huggles back
//flops on
//makes happy sharkdog noises
W000t
I am a beast
Honk honk
but you're still a,cinnamon apple hh
The monstrous cinnamon apple guarding the lil pumpkin pie
//slithers away to make the art of a fan
huehuehue eue
They make me cold actually;w;
silly cinnamon apple
//boops your nose
Cinnamon apple noises
pumpkin pie noises