this is directed at my loved ones. Shyanne, azzy, kit, haru, rezzy, ryuu, david woofie (I don't remember his fa name) and many many others.
this is an apology, I can not really say im sorry, even though I am, ive said im sorry so many times, that its worn out and faded, its torn up and desicrated, it got holes, and tape holding it togeather, its so used up that its literally falling apart, I said I would change, then I didn't, I maybe changed for a day or two then I was back up to it again, you all know what the "IT" is.

kit, I pushed you away, talked back, disrespected you, snapped at you, scolded you, and treated you like utter garbage,

Haru, I wasn't much better to you, I had problems with you, the way you wasn't serius and you wouldn't really seem to understand what I was saying, I talked back to you, I hurt you, I said mean and hurtful things, and I even made you cry.

Rezzy, I ignored you, sometimes talked back to you, and complained to you when you didn't need the stress. David, I pushed you away, I was mean to you, I ignored you, I made fun of you, I pushed you away, and I held things above your head and I humiliated you and was a bitch to you.

Ryuu, I ignored you and I pushed you away, you were alwys there for me yet I always over looked you and acted like you didn't exist, Im sure I hurt you with something I may have said or done, and all you have done for me is nothing short of being the best thata friend can be. and

azzy, I singled you out, I used you as much crutch, I ignored every one in favor of you and acted like you was the only one in the world that mattered, I caused you stress, and I made every one else suffer because of my obsession with you.

Gooz, ive told you to shut up and to piss off, and to go play hide and f your self, ive been pretty mean to you and I dontr really remember why. ive wronged you pretty bad, simple because I guess I found you annoying at times, I know I did wrong to you. and im just asking for a chance to bridge this gap between us and cross this new devide.

meri. I told you to f off, to shut up, to leave me alone, to burn in hell, and countless other things, ive harbored dark feelings for you, and for no real reason at all, I cant really make up for it, but I can own up to it and try to make amends, please let me rebuild the bridge between us.

all of you mentioned im sorry for how ive wronged you.

there are many more that I have hurt, meri, gooz, chansu and his mate, ive hurt all of you and many more that I cant even list, guys, I know I shouldn't and I know I don't diserve it, but, can you all please find it in your hearts to give me just one last, final chance. if I screw up, shun me, disown me, chain me up in the grave yard left there to decay, do what you want. but please, all im asking for is just one last chance, you have no reason to belive me, you have no reason to trust me, you have no reason to like me, hell you don't even have a reason to give me this one last chance, but I'm asking on my knees. please, just give me this last chance to show I can be a better fox.