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9 years ago
i want to thank anyone and everyone who reads this sorry excuse of a journal because it shows how accepting the furry community really is.
so thr label of this may seem odd.
so ill just get too it, im yuko, for those of you who do not know me, I'm 24 years old, I'm bisexual, and I'm also bigender.
I live with my great aunt and uncle and my biological sister, I do not have a job, nor can I drive, i am constantly mentally and emotionally abused on a almost daily basis, i have a boyfriend i cant even hold and its a bitch getting up every morning and not being able to message him or tell him i love him, my laptops hate me, my tablets cracked so i cant use it because the touch screen function is kaput, i need a desktop but parents say its too expensive, if not myy current psychiatrist, i wouldnt be hdre now.
my mistress/mommy is in bad shape because her mate has been fkrced yo move bck in with her parents, im constantly trying to cheer her up over it.
my parents are so stressfull especially my dad ((great uncle)) because he was in the army, so he is a hard ass, and hes not very patient, he calls him self a father but i dont think he actully knows what a father is. my dad never taught me to fight, he never taught me to throw, he never sat with me to watch cartoons as a kid, he was never around! ever!
he dosnt care about anything else but what he wants done. and asong as what he wants done, gets done, then to him thats all that materz.
he even pus his own wife on the back burner! recent ly, hed told me something was my fault......and he smiled as he said it. like he thought it was funny! i need to get out and im loosing the faith to hold on and keep going. the stress is killing me, and the depression will ultimately b my undoing! i wish to every god and goddess i know ofvthAt my bf was here to hold me.
these things are so bad for me that it shouldn't even be happening to me. i wish i could be better maybe going to my first ever con woluld help. ive swalloed a wooden toothpick and needed it removed surgically, ive had internal bleeding that nearly killed me. hell my own doctor had his class write a thesis exam on my internal bleeding case! after all ive been threw, i have no reason im still alive. i had to have 2 surgerys right after my birth, ive been thrown threw a wall, ive been stranged by a class mate, ive heen accused of attempting to blow up the school when i had no part in it. all the problems hAve bern huge blows fows for me and they presist every day. peoplecin this fandom see the good parts of me, see im a good friend, and im happy for this very much. thanks agsin to any and all reading this poor excuse for a journal.
so thr label of this may seem odd.
so ill just get too it, im yuko, for those of you who do not know me, I'm 24 years old, I'm bisexual, and I'm also bigender.
I live with my great aunt and uncle and my biological sister, I do not have a job, nor can I drive, i am constantly mentally and emotionally abused on a almost daily basis, i have a boyfriend i cant even hold and its a bitch getting up every morning and not being able to message him or tell him i love him, my laptops hate me, my tablets cracked so i cant use it because the touch screen function is kaput, i need a desktop but parents say its too expensive, if not myy current psychiatrist, i wouldnt be hdre now.
my mistress/mommy is in bad shape because her mate has been fkrced yo move bck in with her parents, im constantly trying to cheer her up over it.
my parents are so stressfull especially my dad ((great uncle)) because he was in the army, so he is a hard ass, and hes not very patient, he calls him self a father but i dont think he actully knows what a father is. my dad never taught me to fight, he never taught me to throw, he never sat with me to watch cartoons as a kid, he was never around! ever!
he dosnt care about anything else but what he wants done. and asong as what he wants done, gets done, then to him thats all that materz.
he even pus his own wife on the back burner! recent ly, hed told me something was my fault......and he smiled as he said it. like he thought it was funny! i need to get out and im loosing the faith to hold on and keep going. the stress is killing me, and the depression will ultimately b my undoing! i wish to every god and goddess i know ofvthAt my bf was here to hold me.
these things are so bad for me that it shouldn't even be happening to me. i wish i could be better maybe going to my first ever con woluld help. ive swalloed a wooden toothpick and needed it removed surgically, ive had internal bleeding that nearly killed me. hell my own doctor had his class write a thesis exam on my internal bleeding case! after all ive been threw, i have no reason im still alive. i had to have 2 surgerys right after my birth, ive been thrown threw a wall, ive been stranged by a class mate, ive heen accused of attempting to blow up the school when i had no part in it. all the problems hAve bern huge blows fows for me and they presist every day. peoplecin this fandom see the good parts of me, see im a good friend, and im happy for this very much. thanks agsin to any and all reading this poor excuse for a journal.
Alex Folfsky
~thegamerxl
*sniffles* I'm sorry mommy... I promise to be a good puppy
