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family is there for a reason even if their only online.
8 years ago
Family is there for a reason, they complete us, they help us and pick us up when we fall.
I live in SV Arizona. My mommy (karen-collie:icon) lives in Mississippi with her mate, the people i live with while are technically family they do not feel, seem, or even act like my family. That's why i have karen. Karen knows ive been abused and knows I'm damaged goods, but she adopted me any way and she has been working tirelessly to repair and fix me to make me the little fox i used to be.
This year the Miller's (my "family" i live with) are going home to Missouri, to visit other family there. I said i didn't want to go, but that wasnt good enough, instead they tell me "if you wanna stay by your self then you have till this time to get your room clean." Keep in mind my actual age is 24. Soo what do i do? I say sure what ever its not cool and its bull but what ever fine.
I then tell her. My mother. KAREN. I tell her all about the trip and how im being forced to go with them if i dont get my room clean blah blah blah, i tell her, ill be going off line to eliminate the distractions, i finish loading my music to my mp3 to help focus (i have aspergers)
but here we are... nearly 3 or so weeks in... and know what was accomplished??
Bumbkis! Totally Bumbkis! Not a thing. The most ive done is just let laundry pile to the ceiling again, for got to take out my trash till today, nothing has been accomplished. I look around every day and say "today i get something done, today i get it taken care of. Well TODAY! i took out my trash, and my diaper pail. Gold star! 3 weeks and only just now, doing ANYTHING!
and, i think i know why. Its the one thing every kid hates! Its the nagging from thats right! Youve guessed it. MOTHER! i feel it deep down,
i grew up too soon truthfully, i did, mr.miller was never home. He was in the army. Mrs.miller always too busy, older sister... welll she wanted nothing to do with me. I grew up too early.
Now that i have a mother who cares, who really wants the best for me, and i completely shut down when shes not online. Or when we dont speak. I left her online thinking ill do this and itll be quick.
Take it from me guys. Parents are there for a reason even if they are only online. Tomorrow or perhaps when you read this (tomorrow) it will be today, but tomorrow, im going to go crawling back to my mother karen, and tell her everything that i haven't done. And. Truthfully a part of me hopes i get spanked, part of me hopes that shes as disgusted and let down with the truth as i am, its what i deserve. And then another part of me just hopes she cuddles me, and tells me ohh dont worry kit itll be alright, mommys not mad but get to work right now and we can discuss the rest of it tonight before bed. But we will see what happens.
Bottom line every one. Your parents are there for a reason. Dont just think they're a dime a dozen and a nickle a pop. They are the ones who care most, they punish as needed, and reward when its fit, and they are irriplaceable and above all else, they are the ones that teaches and helps us. Trust me. They are needed. Thanks for reading.
I live in SV Arizona. My mommy (karen-collie:icon) lives in Mississippi with her mate, the people i live with while are technically family they do not feel, seem, or even act like my family. That's why i have karen. Karen knows ive been abused and knows I'm damaged goods, but she adopted me any way and she has been working tirelessly to repair and fix me to make me the little fox i used to be.
This year the Miller's (my "family" i live with) are going home to Missouri, to visit other family there. I said i didn't want to go, but that wasnt good enough, instead they tell me "if you wanna stay by your self then you have till this time to get your room clean." Keep in mind my actual age is 24. Soo what do i do? I say sure what ever its not cool and its bull but what ever fine.
I then tell her. My mother. KAREN. I tell her all about the trip and how im being forced to go with them if i dont get my room clean blah blah blah, i tell her, ill be going off line to eliminate the distractions, i finish loading my music to my mp3 to help focus (i have aspergers)
but here we are... nearly 3 or so weeks in... and know what was accomplished??
Bumbkis! Totally Bumbkis! Not a thing. The most ive done is just let laundry pile to the ceiling again, for got to take out my trash till today, nothing has been accomplished. I look around every day and say "today i get something done, today i get it taken care of. Well TODAY! i took out my trash, and my diaper pail. Gold star! 3 weeks and only just now, doing ANYTHING!
and, i think i know why. Its the one thing every kid hates! Its the nagging from thats right! Youve guessed it. MOTHER! i feel it deep down,
i grew up too soon truthfully, i did, mr.miller was never home. He was in the army. Mrs.miller always too busy, older sister... welll she wanted nothing to do with me. I grew up too early.
Now that i have a mother who cares, who really wants the best for me, and i completely shut down when shes not online. Or when we dont speak. I left her online thinking ill do this and itll be quick.
Take it from me guys. Parents are there for a reason even if they are only online. Tomorrow or perhaps when you read this (tomorrow) it will be today, but tomorrow, im going to go crawling back to my mother karen, and tell her everything that i haven't done. And. Truthfully a part of me hopes i get spanked, part of me hopes that shes as disgusted and let down with the truth as i am, its what i deserve. And then another part of me just hopes she cuddles me, and tells me ohh dont worry kit itll be alright, mommys not mad but get to work right now and we can discuss the rest of it tonight before bed. But we will see what happens.
Bottom line every one. Your parents are there for a reason. Dont just think they're a dime a dozen and a nickle a pop. They are the ones who care most, they punish as needed, and reward when its fit, and they are irriplaceable and above all else, they are the ones that teaches and helps us. Trust me. They are needed. Thanks for reading.
