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Mid-Year Analysis is Go
10 years ago
Figured that it's been a bit over a month since my last journal update, so it seemed kind of due. Additionally, it's the eve of my half-birthday (yes, I keep track of my half-birthday - mostly because it's my Dad's birthday so it's something easy to track) and it seems about the time to do some analysis on stuff going on and my progress with various things... That should be "fun."
In the realm of updates and things, as anyone who's paying attention to this stuff, there's been a few updates since last time; mostly reupdating some of the headshots with new "True Facts" info. I did that all the old pieces, and some new ones popped up as well. There's also been new art submitted here and there. Funds have been tighter for various reasons so that's slowed down the acquisition of new art pieces. Admittedly, I do have a few pieces I'm holding back because I want to post them with stories or for other purposes, as well as a few newer pieces that I just haven't posted yet due to everyday life and day job related distractions.
On the written work front, there's at least a few things to say. Last night I put up one of my older written pieces; I have a few of those left, but I'm running out. In regards to new things, I'm presently editing a work my mate and I collaborated on together. The going on that is slow. In regards to other M.E.A. project stuff - well, character development has been getting some good bursts over the last month. No small thanks for that is due to my mate - we've brainstormed and he's come up with amazing ideas for numerous side and background characters for the world of M.E.A., and he hasn’t offered up a suggestion I haven't loved yet. In the realm of concept art, you'll be seeing some more of the characters he's helped bring about soon, and we have a number of side story ideas featuring our "Felton Irregulars."
As for the actual main story line things, or newer side stories… Well, I still have my basic outline for the main story line, and I'm always coming up with new ideas for the main group and other characters. But actually sitting down and writing and hacking out the actual story…? Not too much progress there, I'm hate to say.
I have a few reasons for my frustratingly slow progress. For one, my day job of the last year, as it's gone through its multiple changes, wears me down and stresses me out so that at the end of the day, I really just want to relax and not think about anything. I'm wanting to look for a new job, but I've not got a whole lot of experience in job hunting (this is literally my first job out of college - my second job altogether if you count my student worker gig at school) - so it's definitely on the daunting side, and besides… Well, I don't have a lot of confidence in my abilities, and I have this deep worry that I won't be able to do better than what I'm doing now, and I'll just fuck it up and then have no job and financially ruin my household. It's probably an irrational fear with little truth to, but it's still there, and it's not something I can put away easily.
I will also admit freely but with no small amount of shame that I am a highly undisciplined, unfocused individual. When I'm feeling stressed, it's easy for me to get distracted and lose myself in other things under the "It'll only be a moment's break, I'll get back to it in a moment" mantra. It's pretty much just another form of procrastination, and a horrible habit I've had for much of my life - and like most bad habits, it's hard to break. I guess part of what I need to do is just try to find ways to help make myself focus and just buckle down for what I want to do… Blugh.
So, half-way between 26 and 27, taking looks at my personal progress on my projects with mixed feelings. Looking towards the remainder of year 26 and trying to figure out what I want to try and accomplish, and how I'll get that done. Lots of stuff to contemplate… Also, a desire to contemplate how I can get even more delicious, delicious concept art of all these wonderful characters in my life. These are the things running through my mind at the moment. Have I overshared? Probably, but eh. They're things that have been on my mind and probably contributed to my inability to get a decent amount of sleep last night, so maybe it should be shared…
ANYWAY. Here's an updated list of stuff and things.
1. Revise and work out the Man-Eaters Anonymous storyline.
2. In general, flesh out more character profiles.
3. Again, work out more Race Info stuff and tweaking the layout.
4. Finish editing the collaboration story.
5. Post "new" (or at least new to people who aren't me or the significant others) M.E.A. related works.
6. Work on short stories for some of the art in the gallery.
7. Put up unposted artwork when I have a moment to work up proper descriptions.
8. Seriously, try to find a new day job. Health insurance related call-center jobs are hell.
9. Consider the goals I want to set for myself for the next six months and what kind of progress I want to have on my personal work by the time I'm 27.
10. Sleep. Because once again, I am so fucking whipped that I am always worn down. Sleep needs to be a thing.
In the realm of updates and things, as anyone who's paying attention to this stuff, there's been a few updates since last time; mostly reupdating some of the headshots with new "True Facts" info. I did that all the old pieces, and some new ones popped up as well. There's also been new art submitted here and there. Funds have been tighter for various reasons so that's slowed down the acquisition of new art pieces. Admittedly, I do have a few pieces I'm holding back because I want to post them with stories or for other purposes, as well as a few newer pieces that I just haven't posted yet due to everyday life and day job related distractions.
On the written work front, there's at least a few things to say. Last night I put up one of my older written pieces; I have a few of those left, but I'm running out. In regards to new things, I'm presently editing a work my mate and I collaborated on together. The going on that is slow. In regards to other M.E.A. project stuff - well, character development has been getting some good bursts over the last month. No small thanks for that is due to my mate - we've brainstormed and he's come up with amazing ideas for numerous side and background characters for the world of M.E.A., and he hasn’t offered up a suggestion I haven't loved yet. In the realm of concept art, you'll be seeing some more of the characters he's helped bring about soon, and we have a number of side story ideas featuring our "Felton Irregulars."
As for the actual main story line things, or newer side stories… Well, I still have my basic outline for the main story line, and I'm always coming up with new ideas for the main group and other characters. But actually sitting down and writing and hacking out the actual story…? Not too much progress there, I'm hate to say.
I have a few reasons for my frustratingly slow progress. For one, my day job of the last year, as it's gone through its multiple changes, wears me down and stresses me out so that at the end of the day, I really just want to relax and not think about anything. I'm wanting to look for a new job, but I've not got a whole lot of experience in job hunting (this is literally my first job out of college - my second job altogether if you count my student worker gig at school) - so it's definitely on the daunting side, and besides… Well, I don't have a lot of confidence in my abilities, and I have this deep worry that I won't be able to do better than what I'm doing now, and I'll just fuck it up and then have no job and financially ruin my household. It's probably an irrational fear with little truth to, but it's still there, and it's not something I can put away easily.
I will also admit freely but with no small amount of shame that I am a highly undisciplined, unfocused individual. When I'm feeling stressed, it's easy for me to get distracted and lose myself in other things under the "It'll only be a moment's break, I'll get back to it in a moment" mantra. It's pretty much just another form of procrastination, and a horrible habit I've had for much of my life - and like most bad habits, it's hard to break. I guess part of what I need to do is just try to find ways to help make myself focus and just buckle down for what I want to do… Blugh.
So, half-way between 26 and 27, taking looks at my personal progress on my projects with mixed feelings. Looking towards the remainder of year 26 and trying to figure out what I want to try and accomplish, and how I'll get that done. Lots of stuff to contemplate… Also, a desire to contemplate how I can get even more delicious, delicious concept art of all these wonderful characters in my life. These are the things running through my mind at the moment. Have I overshared? Probably, but eh. They're things that have been on my mind and probably contributed to my inability to get a decent amount of sleep last night, so maybe it should be shared…
ANYWAY. Here's an updated list of stuff and things.
THE TO DO LIST OF DOOMEDY-DOOM-DOOM-DUH-DOOM1. Revise and work out the Man-Eaters Anonymous storyline.
2. In general, flesh out more character profiles.
3. Again, work out more Race Info stuff and tweaking the layout.
4. Finish editing the collaboration story.
5. Post "new" (or at least new to people who aren't me or the significant others) M.E.A. related works.
6. Work on short stories for some of the art in the gallery.
7. Put up unposted artwork when I have a moment to work up proper descriptions.
8. Seriously, try to find a new day job. Health insurance related call-center jobs are hell.
9. Consider the goals I want to set for myself for the next six months and what kind of progress I want to have on my personal work by the time I'm 27.
10. Sleep. Because once again, I am so fucking whipped that I am always worn down. Sleep needs to be a thing.
Go look for a new job, Love, your partners aren't going anywhere. And the other car is getting fixed soon. I mean, you can drive, after all.
I love you.
Do what you need to do to take care yourself and accomplish your goals and we'll be right behind you to back you up. And if you need help with that job search stuff, you can always ask me what you need to do.