so its been just over 6 weeks since I lost my job...
since then I have relapsed on my depression...

I feel like I have let my parents down and let my mate down...
but worst of all is I feel like I have let my cubs down...

I end up hiding behind a mask showing I am happy when in reality... I feel empty, lost and alone...

some of you who might actually read this are thinking why have I post here...

2 simple reasons 1) no one really reads my journals and 2) its the only place I can release without people hounding me...