There's been some concern as to how I've been of late. I've been away from here for quite some time. Truth is all is not well. I'm feeling much like the representation of my character in my last submission ever completed. I'm in a real deep pit that was dug so deep mainly by my own doing. My usual I know best attitude when it comes to dealing with my haywire brain even though history has shown I don't know best how to treat & deal with this. I'm working now with the help of professionals, with my family, & close friends to climb back out. There are some days though I feel I'd rather the whole damn thing would cave in on me & that I might find eternal peace. No I'm not really suicidal. I don't literally want to die. It's just...I'd like for things to just pause for a bit. Life goes on however & I have to keep fighting, even if I don't want to. Some good has come of this though. It's helped redirect my focus on being a Christian Furry & not merely a Furry Christian. A good bit of y'all may not truly understand the difference but a few of you will. It's all about priorities & mine had not been right for a good while. At times it takes these times down in the pit or even severe personal tragedies for us to reach such realizations. So I haven't been very active here & truly I don't see myself being too active for quite some time.

Mainly a matter of motivation. Just don't feel as much joy with drawing right now despite I still want to get back to improving myself in that area. Can be tough though. I've made some improvements but it's difficult when it's just my drive only & no external encouragement or feedback. Now I know I'll probably never be a commission-quality artist as drawing is not a high focus in my life. Still it would be nice to know that there's some interest in me continuing to improve on drawing. I at times I'm not good at giving that encouragement myself so I probably shouldn't harp on it so much myself. Have a cool project idea I'd like to do with mugshots of a bunch of my friends on the radiation symbol sorta as a commemoration to the recent declassification of the beginnings of nuclear technology in the U.S. Had an uncle who was a big contributor to the Manhattan Project. A shame he died before now. It be cool to have heard the details he could've shared. This will probably stretch on for a long while but we shall see. I'll keep y'all posted.