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Winter: The Dark in the Day
10 years ago
It's been a pretty interesting summer overall. Unfortunately, the two biggest things I was looking forward to, separate visits and explorations by two friends/family, fell through, and the weather didn't cooperate for the solo excursions I was planning for. I suppose that's to be expected with the lame weather this region is known for, and you don't want to be stuck on a mountain or a glacier when you can't see anything. :D But I've gotten some pretty major adventures in, went to the furry campout and revisited with friends, camped out in a rustic cabin owned by Silver, and treked upon the Arctic Circle where the sun never set...things that are definitely worth remembering.
Keeping in tradition with what seems to be a bi-annual journal, this update is about the things I am hoping to accomplish. If I can get myself to stop playing so much damn League, I want to become more proficient with 3D modellingn since most of my time consists of programming. And there are bigger issues to work out as well. Working in education is kind of a drag because each semester brings the same questions but slightly different issues; nothing ever just goes smoothly even though it should. For being a place of higher learning, I consistently come across the dumbest people alive. I suppose life in general is no different. I don't want to leave because I still feel that what I do is necessary, but then what I do doesn't seem to get utilized to it's true potential--not even close--it's difficult to stay motivated. Yet I have maximum freedom, abstract requirements, and essentially answer to no one in my day-to-day. It's a really good setup despite some personal challenges associated with that, and I'm not so illogical that I always fall into the trap of "the grass is always greener on the other side," but sometimes I am too logical and safe to really take advantage of a risk when it relates to business and not simply the potential for getting killed under a glacier or boulder. The latter I'm totally cool with, the former makes me worry.
I have learned that you do not have to do x and y to get z. In fact, that equation is essentially meaningless unless backed up by pre-requisite occurances that, in hindset, can't help but lead to a predetermined outcome. I'm not a fatalistic, but kind of a dark optimist, so for me, nothing is predetermined and there is always some degree of control that we exert over our lives, whether we choose to utilize it or not. My goal in life is to find my path and walk on it proactively, not reactively. I want to focus on Shit That Matters ™.
A big part of that focus is to get back into the creative arts and meditate reguarly. There is nothing stopping me from doing so other than myself. I have an idea of a children's book that is both tragic and depressing yet hopeful. I want to complete at least one anthro drawing this winter. :) Professionally, I have some training applications I need to master and then design. I also want to do more 3D work, and if anybody has something nonorganic they want modelled and they aren't concerned about geometric complexity, let me know. I need drawings to work with. I also preordered the Quixel suite with the hopes of taking may materials to the next level, but right now Zbrush and improved workflow in Maya are my top priority. Then of course there is the Unity Engine and C#... x.x Those last two I mentioned at the start of the summer and I haven't done anything toward it lol.
At the end of the day it's important to stay grounded and not lose my soul or sense of direction, and doing so is entirely on me.
Keeping in tradition with what seems to be a bi-annual journal, this update is about the things I am hoping to accomplish. If I can get myself to stop playing so much damn League, I want to become more proficient with 3D modellingn since most of my time consists of programming. And there are bigger issues to work out as well. Working in education is kind of a drag because each semester brings the same questions but slightly different issues; nothing ever just goes smoothly even though it should. For being a place of higher learning, I consistently come across the dumbest people alive. I suppose life in general is no different. I don't want to leave because I still feel that what I do is necessary, but then what I do doesn't seem to get utilized to it's true potential--not even close--it's difficult to stay motivated. Yet I have maximum freedom, abstract requirements, and essentially answer to no one in my day-to-day. It's a really good setup despite some personal challenges associated with that, and I'm not so illogical that I always fall into the trap of "the grass is always greener on the other side," but sometimes I am too logical and safe to really take advantage of a risk when it relates to business and not simply the potential for getting killed under a glacier or boulder. The latter I'm totally cool with, the former makes me worry.
I have learned that you do not have to do x and y to get z. In fact, that equation is essentially meaningless unless backed up by pre-requisite occurances that, in hindset, can't help but lead to a predetermined outcome. I'm not a fatalistic, but kind of a dark optimist, so for me, nothing is predetermined and there is always some degree of control that we exert over our lives, whether we choose to utilize it or not. My goal in life is to find my path and walk on it proactively, not reactively. I want to focus on Shit That Matters ™.
A big part of that focus is to get back into the creative arts and meditate reguarly. There is nothing stopping me from doing so other than myself. I have an idea of a children's book that is both tragic and depressing yet hopeful. I want to complete at least one anthro drawing this winter. :) Professionally, I have some training applications I need to master and then design. I also want to do more 3D work, and if anybody has something nonorganic they want modelled and they aren't concerned about geometric complexity, let me know. I need drawings to work with. I also preordered the Quixel suite with the hopes of taking may materials to the next level, but right now Zbrush and improved workflow in Maya are my top priority. Then of course there is the Unity Engine and C#... x.x Those last two I mentioned at the start of the summer and I haven't done anything toward it lol.
At the end of the day it's important to stay grounded and not lose my soul or sense of direction, and doing so is entirely on me.
