I certainly hope all of (or at least some of you) had a nice New Year's Eve/Day. Mine was just the same ol' same ol' - nothing exciting happened. :P

I took the opportunity to reflect on my last few years. After a while, I have realized something. I've been mates with several guys, and every single one of them would break up with me by being quiet. Yes, you heard me, by being quiet.

Every relationship I've been in always end up with the other guy going quiet and not being very talkative, or just flatly not speaking to me anymore. I would always think that they have just simply lost interest in me, but I began to think otherwise.

There was this one guy I used to date. We were very talkative and it seemed like we could potientally be mates later down the road. But, after a while, he just suddenly went quiet and did not talk to me much. He also kept thinking up excuses on why he has not been on much - like work, sick grandma, and so on. And one night he finally told me that he just couldn't bring himself to tell me that he did not like me in that way anymore, because it was just so hard to bring it up to such a sweet guy.

That made me wonder if all of my relationships were just like that - they just eventually fade away because they couldn't tell me. They didn't want to break my heart, so they just decided it would be best just to let it slowly fade away.

It also made me wonder if I'm just too sweet and nice. I'm thinking that I might have to tone down on my "nicenesses" so people wouldn't get too attracted to me. But it could also mean that they don't find me interesting anymore, so it's pretty much up in the air.

I just hope this trend will not continue throughout my life. I'd like to eventually settle down with a mate and live a happy life (or at least try to :P).

Anyway, I feel better writing this, and thank you for your patience in reading this. Please feel free to comment on my journal entry.