I've been going through a bunch of shit lately so i'm sorry for the long wait and lack of communication, not only to the people i owe work to but i especially apologize to my friends.
Anyway, what's been going on with me is basically just a lot of emotional shit, and stress. Last week i went all the way to louisiana from texas to go meet my biological fathers family for the first time in my life, and that was incredibly awkward and confusing for me, and then the day after i got back from that trip one of my dogs was hit by a car and died while i was at work and the whole situation could've been easily avoided if my cousin (who was supposed to be taking care of the dogs.) would learn some common fucking sense. but that's a whole nother story. and i'm just trying to look past it all and move on with my life but i'm finding it very difficult to shake these feelings of anger and heartache. I also feel incredibly disgusting because i'm sucking ass at school and i refuse to tell my dad that, and hes paying for it... so basically hes spending money for me to be a lazy fucking asshole.

I need to go calm the fuck down.