Stuff keeps happening to me, I can't handle it anymore, any bit of stress and I can hear the god damn thumping of my blood pressure in my head, like a never ending drum beat.

I don't understand why people even bother with me, I keep telling people about my issues the mental, the physical and all that jazz and yet people get upset about it and get upset when I don't agree with them.

I am sorry to everyone that had to deal with me, I don't want to hurt anyone but I am tired of biting my tongue about things, so just gonna say this, I wish all I am friends with and that I have cared for in the past-tense well, and I mean that, I want you to have a good long life with good luck... again sorry that I am me, but I don't know how else to be.

Gonna end with that I am not gonna stream for awhile, gonna slowly poke at my commissions offline, I may be around on Skype but my mood will be blah... not that is much different then I normally am.

Thanks for reading, I wish you all no matter who you are the best *hugs*

EDIT: just want to add that every one has a bias to them, I don't want to talk about what brought this on cause people will take my side without knowing fully what went on, I do consider my self more objective then most, but still everyone has an opinion, if I don't agree with someones opinion then the issue should be dropped, not brought up again and again to the point to where I am right now, crying and having the pounding in my head, that is all I ask.