I dunno, I'm a little down atm. I have the most amazing friends but lots of their friends don't like me and won't tell me why. :/ I feel like they're basing their view of me on the past, extremely immature me. I was very childish until recently, not to mention trying to deal with depression all on my own and trying to act normal while being autistic. I know some of you will probably be thinking I just need to suck it up, people have it worse than me. I just feel like I'm being left behind. Like no matter how hard I try I'm going to be forgotten... And if I push to hard to get back into their lives.... I'll just end up pushing them away... I dunno.... Maybe it's just one of those days...

I realised something. When your friends have fullsuits and you don't, they tend to have more fun than you. And then you feel sad coz you wanna have that much fun. But then every time you try to do something, your stupid brain gets in the way. And then that makes you more sad coz you can't make the fullsuit you need. :I

I need a hug. :I