If people have been following me on twitter or know me on skype, you know I either haven't been around much, or have ran into some Deeeep depression..
which has recessed my little side to non-existence.

Well a lot of things have happened in a short amount of time, that have been piling on top of each other faster than I can deal with them.

Some my fault, and some just a stroke of bad luck.

Recently Ive been in the process of rebuilding my computer, it needed it.
it was running on it's edge everyday and being pushed just to do daily activities.
i had a 95w CPU in it and the board supports 65W, the bios was so old that it didn't recognize the chip.

It was an alright computer, but with my job I was able to stash aside money each check to buy parts one by one.
I was finally on my way to having somewhat of a high end build.

When time came, I switched the Mobo, and upgraded the RAM, I had read guides that told me how to switch without having to reinstall the OS, what I didn't realize was the OEM license does not transfer.

So I was left to using spare hardrives so I don't lose all of my data on my original.

i found a spare working drive, and formatted it, and then acquired win7 ISO's with the help of several friends guiding me, I was met with countless Blue screens, and no answers except speculation that the HD is corrupt or the RAM is bad.. At this point was already in more money than i wanted to spend.
having had to buy another CPU because my original one was an old AM2 socket.
I was ready to buy a new HD when I noticed that my bank account was in the negative..
Apparently I forgot to unsubscribe to Amazon's Prime service, and they billed me $101 on top of my pending cable bill payment, and I was left in a panic.
I managed to undo the subscription, and have my account credited, but they have a 2-4 day waiting period, and this was done over the weekend, So I am anxiously waiting on my credit.

On top of all this, I lost a very special person.
My Daddy fur, who has been stressed and over worked with his incredibly busy job, has decided "he cannot be the daddy I need" which killed me in side.
It shattered my little side.

I sat there, and in my head i can see Bobkitty's fateful back story replaying in my head, as he is dropped off at the orphanage once again, because nobody can take him.

I cannot blame him, his life is crazy busy, and he has no time for anything anymore, he's lost his drive to be a daddy figure.

It just stung.

On top of this, I blew another tire on the highway on the way to see a friend who invited me out to see a local Christmas train which is a rare sight.
I was left to limp the car around on the doughtnut spare, until I was able to beg Sila's mom to buy me a tire, because I don't get paid till Thursday.
meanwhile I'm just sitting here, watching my paycheck I haven't gotten yet, just disappear.

If there was any consolation to this whole weekend, was my friends mom got Sila and I access to Universal Studios for a few hours, where Sila finally got see Diagon alley.
For that short time I saw her smile, a smile I haven't truly seen in few years.
It made me want to cry.

But it didn't last, as I went back to work, and the drama continues, our boss has fudged our schedule, and things are hectic, and he hasn't been in to take care of things because he himself has had car troubles...

It's just one thing after another, There are a bunch of small things I haven't even bothered to mention, like my depression, and loss of interest in diapers, and Sila's mom being a total ass lately.
and our loss of Foodstamps, and ugh... just so much, I want it to end..
I feel like a piece of shit.