i spend my days waiting for something better. nothing usually comes. no glimmer of life no shred of hope but every once in awhile sunshines in through the cracks and im alive. not today, today is different. i see a wasteland over shadowed by a storm. one thing keeps me going and she knows what she means to me. the hard part is surviving till i can be everything i want to be. I cant do this on my own is what ive realized and no help comes from above. ill take my greif and sorrow to the grave for every person ive betrayed. No one said life was easy and i can attest to that but wtf is wrong with the people who start their day saying to themselves im gonna ruin someone elses...you get one life to live why would i or any of you want to live in agony?